"I'm taking you with me Max! She doesn't love us, we don't love her! As soon as you get well we're leaving."
"But Bi-"
"Shhh.. We're gonna get thru this.. Together!<3"
"Together<3"
I hug him again.
"I'm going home, packing and then I'll come back here.. I'll stay beside you! We're going to get thru this mess!"
I leave.. I go on a bus and go home..
- - - time skip - - -
I arrive at home.. I go up stairs to my room. Luckily my mother doesn't notice me. I pack some clothes, my headphones, Phone, Laptop, toothbrush, toothpaste, food, shoes, camera and some more things such as setup.. I go to my brothers room. I pack his things in a diffrent bag.
I end up having 2 backpacks and 2 other bags. I packed everythings pretty well.. I took the money I had saved from a secret hiding place.. Actually, me and my brother both gathered money and put it there.. I took all the money and packed that aswell.. I walked downstairs with my bags.. My mother noticed me..
"Where are you going?" she said. She took a sip if here drink.. Wine I'm guessing..
"I'm leaving.. I don't want to be a bother for you, besides.. You moved out when you were 16 too remeber?"
"Well that's nice and all but I don't think you have any place to go to.."
"I guess I'll look for a house then, besides I have money and I'm pretty sure I know a perfect place.. Bye Lindsay (moms' name)"
"Have a safe ride... Bianca"
I leave for the hospital..
- - - Time Skip - - -
I arrive at the hospital.. I walk to the third floor to my brothers' room. He's sleeping. I drop the bags by him and leave him a note which says:
Dear Max,
I went for a walk.. I'll be back in a bit.. See you soon! I grabbed your stuff too!
-Your sis, Bianca
I left his room and went out of the hospital. I knew there was a park near, so I decided to go there.
- - - time skip - - -
The park is beautiful! I used to come here soo many times.. "I'm sorry Max, I'm sorry Dad.. I'm sorry.. Everyone..." i mumble. I fall to the ground.. I sob.. I cry.. "My life is a mess.. I wish I could just die sometimes.. My life is a hell hole.. But I should fight.. My brother would care.. My fans would care... My dad would.." I whisper to myself.. "My brother tried to kill himself again.. He's younger than me.. He's been thru way more than me... My mom is a drug addict.. An alcoholic.. She's a slut.. She hates her life.. She's also been through hard times.. I still love my mother.. She didn't choose to be heartbroken... She didn't choose to let dad die.. She didn't kill him.. Mom's been through tough times.. She started drinking when dad died.. So she could forgett.. She lost her job.. My brother started to cut.." i sob.."Why is my life like this?! My mom lost her job.. She began taking drugs.. She tells me she loves me, I believe her.. My brother.. He's in the hospital.. He could've died today.. And I wasn't around to help him.." I just sit there.. In the park in the midnight.. On the wet concrete.. It's raining.. It's been raining since I waked out of the hospital.. I'm a mess!! "I'M A MESS!!" I scream.
"Excuse me are you okay? It's cold out here.. " a male says.. He has this voice.. I recognize it.. I look up. It's dark and I can't see who it is.. I see a hand coming towards me.. I grab it. The person helps me up.
"I didn't mean to eavesdrop but I'm guessing you're not doing well.. I'm Rob."
"Bianca" I reply.. Is he that Rob?? He can't be.. Altho this is Canada.. Noo.. That's not possible..
"You have a beautiful name Bianca! Can I help you? I don't think you should be out here in the dark.. It's cold and people could hurt you!"
I giggle.. Isn't he a stranger also? "You could hurt me too you know right?"
He giggles "that's true.. But I really just want to help you. You seem lost in life. You should focus on yourself!"
"Well I can't really focus on myself Mr Woofless.. when my life is a mess.. Everything around me sucks.. My brother attempted to commit suicide today.. Is that normal?"
He hugs me.. I was surprised at first but then hugged back. He's a nice person.
"I'll help you!"
"I think you finally have job.."
"Yeah? What's that?"
"Comforting others.. <3"
