i wouldn't call it poetry

words

sometimes i feel like
words are useless
is there a word
for that feeling?
of course not
the closest thing
i can think of
is helpless

there's never a word
for exactly what you're
thinking of--

that's why people
invented adjectives
to tack onto words
that aren't quite enough

people tell me i'm
good with words
but i'm not, and
it's so, so frustrating

except it isn't
is there a word
for that feeling?

there's never a word
for any of the dim,
misguided thoughts
in my head, so they
are forced to want to
express themselves
in other ways

this is what i hate
most, because the
rational part of my
mind would never
allow another method
of expression

it prefers words
stupid words

but i suppose the
rational part of my
mind is there for a
reason, and i shouldn't
complain about it now