Aphmau fanfiction- Garence

chapter 27: I'm a fool.

(I'm back! well for a little bit after christmas brake is preparing for exams so i'll be studying that week so don't expect anything those weeks after that I will do my best to update every month. warning this is sad as where seeing Garroth's pov of the whole thing if depressing thoughts trigger you please leave. the one shot will be writen sometime this week I just need to tally up the votes.)

I Locked myself in my room everyday when I got home My dad was to busy to care, Mom was to busy worring about Zane and trying to get him out of his "Emo phase", Zane could care less and vlyad was to busy with school. 

You see I had a crush on this guy his name was Laurence same year as myself he was a casanova and was one of the school hotties such as myself. I had a crush on him sense first year. Though being the shy dumbass I was... never had the currage or guts to go up and ask him out which was a mistake I made that ruined my chances of ever dating him in the first place. As a new first year with courage and sassiness of a third year waltzed in and stole my chances of dating him.

His name was Travis. He to was a school hottie he  asked Laurence the day I finaly brought up my courrage to ask. I watched before my very eyes as Travis asked Laurence out. I had prepared and everything the night before I even bought flowers and a card. I threw the gifts away and ran out of the school I didn't care at that moment that I was skipping school I locked myself in my room and cried. After all boys can't cry in front of others it was a sign of weakness.

It was that way everyday. walk home quick hello to mom go upstaires to my room look myself in their and let everything out I broke myself down every time I saw them together this really was a onesided crush. I was fool that was in that onesided relationship. I had fallen into a depression I tried to pull myself up by telling myself there someone out there for me and I was making a big deal over a stupid thing but I just brought myself down again. soon I began to weaken myself until mom saw something was wrong and got me to see someone who coud help me. we just have to see where this goes.

(Please read this. If you are suffering from depression right now or if you know someone who suffering from depression please please please seek help you are not alone there are people out there who will listen and help you through this. take this from a person who knows what it like to go through depression. you are important to many people including myself I may not know you but that does not mean that I don't care I do care. so please seek help there are people out there who can help you. thank you- aphmaumuffin.)