Trigger warning
Hayden POV
I was on Skype with my best friend Alex. They were playing a video game and I was contemplating life.
"Hk you good?" Alex broke the silence
"Never better." I sighed
We didn't speak much over Skype I was consumed by suicidal thoughts and Alex was consumed by their video games.
We stay up every day till the sun rises at my place then I 'sleep' what I do is anything but sleep.
The sun rises at 7:30am and I get off Skype with Alex.
I walked into my bathroom and slid down the wall. I picked up a tile to expose a blade I picked it up and rolled up my sleeve pressed and pulled across.
Everyone was oblivious to the fact I cut myself. It seemed no one cared about me.
I pushed down harder and pulled across.
A liquid spurted out but then dripped fastly making a puddle.
I honestly didn't care so I pushed harder and dragged down.
The puddle grew bigger and bigger.
My body started going limp and I immediately noticed so I took a towel out and pressed down on the wounds to stop the liquid.
The wounds stopped dripping so I cleaned my mess and hid the blade once again under the tile.
Pulling down my sleeve and unlocking the door I saw my brother soon as I opened the bathroom door.
"Oh hi" I chirped to him
"Why were you in their for so long (real name)" he asked sternly
I hated when he used my real name.
"I was taking a bath." I pushed by him
He sighed "I know youre doing that stupid shit again."
My heart broke a little "what shit?" I asked
"The drugs again. You smell like it all the time." He spit back
"You know I promised alex I wouldn't again. Not after last time." I got defensive
"Alex isn't a real friend. No one on the internet is real." He got closer to me
"Alex is a real friend to me." I backed up
"You say that now." He said and turned away without any emotion.
I opened my bedroom door closed and locked it then broke down.
'I can't take this anymore they're just getting worse'
I woke up to it being about 4pm so I went down stairs to find a sleeping brother and a mom in the kitchen. my cat meowd at me so I quickly grabbed him and ran up the stairs to my room hoping no one noticed me.
I plopped my cat on the bed and sat next to him.
"Oh I wish you could talk." I looked at him
He only meowd back a few times.
"Tell me about it." I hugged him
My computer started ringing with a familiar tone.
"Alex!" I jumped up and answered the call
"Hey hk you haven't texted me all day and I was worried." Alex smiled at seeing me ok
"Yeah I was just sleeping all day! What's new." I gave the most convincing smile.
We did our usual Alex played their game and I thought about ways to end my life.
All was too well then I couldn't breathe a panic attack was arriving. I picked at my fresh wounds not realizing Alex was on Skype and could see the whole thing going down.
I got up and ran to the bathroom grabbed the blade and a few towels and went back to my room.
At this point I still didn't remember alex on Skype but they watched me freak out and stare at a blade like it was my everything.
I pressed down on my arm
"Hk!" Alex screamed
I jerked and cut very deep.
Me knowing I fucked up bad. I panicked and hung up the call.
My arm was bleeding very bad and I was getting dizzy fast so I tried to stop the bleeding but I started to loose consciousness so I texted my brother 'help'
I heard footsteps coming up the stairs and my door swinging open.
The last thing I saw was my brother then darkness.
Alex POV
Its been weeks since the incident with hk. I felt as it was my fault. Like I caused her to cut that deep by scaring her. I feel so bad. All I knew was she was in a coma.
Was that the last of my best friend?
About a week later
I was able to go see hk in the hospital. I sat there with her for what seemed like hours.
I started to fall asleep on the side of her bed until I heard the dreaded flat line sound. I bounced up and called for a nurse.
I and her brother were pushed out of the room.
The doctor came out and said "we did all that we could. She's gone."
It was my fault she was gone.
The fact she died.
Cut that deep.
If I only would have known what was going on.
Maybe I could have saved her.
IM SORRY I DID IT AGAIN! PLS DONT HATE ME!
