TRIGGER WARNING FOR THIS CHAPTER PLEASE READ WITH CAUTION
Alex POV
I was losing my best friend. Hayden was slowly going away. We lived in the same small town but she felt so far away.
I watched my best friend descend into her depression and I never helped. I watched her slowly start to hate herself more but I don't say anything. I watched her body fill with more scars I never pointed it out.
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We hung out for the first time in a while but she was quiet. We sat in her car at a light.
"Hayden why are you drifting away.." I asked
"I didn't notice I was. Im sorry." She said never looking away from the light
"I don't want to lose you." I looked at her
"You never will" she looked over at me
I honestly never believed her when she said I wouldn't lose her. She always drifted away when she would be about to try and end her life.
She dropped me off at my house and we said byes and planned for her to come pick me up to come over the next day.
"I'll see you later hayden!"
"See you later alex!"
And with that she drove away.
I was scared that would be the last time I'd see her.
Hayden POV
I hated myself more and more everyday. I didn't want to be here anymore. But I couldn't leave alex.
I dropped alex off at her house trying to avoid plans with them or anyone actually. I got in my car and drove off I caved into plans with alex. I guess I had to stay.
I went home and no one was there again. Not much of a surprise. I went into my room and locked the door and grabbed a blade.
"Its funny how a cold lifeless piece of metal can control everything." I laughed to myself
I rolled up my sleeve to expose a healing canvas. I pushed a little harder than usual I watched a oh so familiar red liquid drip from my arm to the white tile floor. I let it drip for a little while then cleaned up everything and put away all the evidence.
"Maybe tonight." I whispered to myself and laid on my bed.
My brother came home and did his usual come scream at me and hit me then leave again.
This was the first time it ever really bothered me. I couldn't take it anymore.
The voices took over very quick
Do it
I will
No one likes you
I know
Suicide is a great answer
It really is
No one will care
Who ever did
Fuck up
Exactly
I walked calmly into my bathroom and grabbed the blade out of my medicine cabinet and a few bottles of pills. I didn't care. I took all the pills and slid down my wall and rolled up my sleeve for the last time and pushed down as hard as I could and pulled it down my arm.
I was getting dizzy fast everything was fading in and out then everything went black.
Alex pov
My phone buzzed with a text at 10:36pm it was from hayden
Lion♡////goodbye.
I didn't know what she meant so I didn't reply and I went to sleep.
Damn I wish I would have held on.
Hayden's note
I was falling into my old ways again. No one seemed to notice.
I stopped caring about life. No one cared.
I was giving up. No one was there.
But now I'm gone. Everyone is there.
AN/ I cried writing this chapter. Oops
