#PyreSB : Why Sleeping Beauty Decided To Burn The World

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Pyre V
Even an Open Book Only Shows Two Pages
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Danielle

What if I'm already dead?

What if everything's just a memory? A memory buried deep down inside your subconscious that you just assumed it was already forgotten? What if the life that you're living right now is just a mirage? An illusion? A replay of a memory?

The truth is, people don't really forget. They just accept things and move on. This then give things a sense of closure finally allowing those memories to be stored in their subconscious. Only to be retrieved in the future.

Ever wondered why you can't force yourself to forget something? It's because you're still dwelling on it. Kaya kahit anong pilit mong kalimutan ang isang bagay, hindi mangyayari yun. Kasi hindi mo pa nabigyan ng closure. Di mo pa natanggap. Di ka pa nagmomoveon.

Now let's get back to my original question:

What if I'm already dead and everything is just a replay? A memory?

Have you heard? Na may mga taong nasa near death experiences na naranasang magflashback yung buhay nila sa isang segundo lang? Impossible? Maybe. Maybe not.

Our brain likes to avoid stress. And what could possibly be the biggest contributor of stress other than death? Well virtually, wala na.

Pero hindi naman talaga kamatayan ang kinakatakutan ng mga tao eh. Yung mga bagay na kaakibat nito. The suddenness and finality of it.

I don't fear death. I'm afraid that I'll die before I can finish what I've started. I'm afraid that I'll die without me doing anything special. Without me leaving a mark in this world. I'm afraid of the fact that I'll be gone before I can show people that I exist.

Have you heard? That after you die and your brain is still intact, you are left with seven minutes of brain activity? Impossible? Maybe. Maybe not.

Sabi kasi nila kapag namatay ka daw, magrerelease daw ng maraming neurotransmitters ang utak natin. Those things na responsible sa pagaactivate ng mga parte ng utak natin, oftentimes yung mga parte na responsible for dreaming. So what if you happen to dream while you are dying? What if you're locked in a seven-minute dream?

Ano sa tingin mo ang mangyayari sayo sa loob ng pitong minuto na to? Merong nagsasabing lalabas yung kaluluwa mo para bisitahin yung mga mahal mo sa buhay. Merong nagsasabing magmumulto ka.

What if in those seven minutes, you start remembering your life? That you'll start seeing everything flashing before your eyes? Naisip mo na ba na kung isang segundo lang ang kailangan para mag replay ang buong buhay mo, meron kang 420 seconds. Meron kang 420 replays. Meron kang 420 lifetimes.

Sa four hundred twenty lifetimes na meron ka, nakailang replay ka na? Isa? Dalawa? Nakalahati mo na ba? O patapos ka na?

Now let's get back to my original question:

What if I'm already dead and everything is just a replay? A memory?

Bumangon ako sa pagkakahiga ko at dumiretso sa banyo. Now I'm starting to think like that guy, Sora. I like thinking morbid things. But not on this magnitude. Certainly not on this level.

I splashed cold water on my face hoping to ease the throbbing that started to form on my temples. Another sleepless night. Nakakabaliw talaga yung pagiging insomniac ko.

Lack of sleep causes brain damage. I can almost hear Sora lecturing right now. Kahit naman siya dis oras na ng gabi matulog. The nerve of that man to lecture me.