Be Brave

Chapter Twenty Eight

HAPPY NEW YEARS!!!!🎉🎉

NOT EDITED*01/01/17
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1 hour earlier...

To say I was nervous when we got back home would be a complete understatement. It felt like I was having an anxiety attack the whole way home. I tried to formulate a plan as to how I was going to tell him without making him bolt out the door. Needless to say he was going to be stunned speechless.

Once we got home I learned no one was home which gave us the privacy we needed. I kind of just told him to shut up and to not interrupt until I was done talking. I also made him promise not to leave. After that was all cleared up I started from the beginning. How Luke and I met to before I moved here, to him cheating on me, to the car accident, and then eventually to the night he raped me. It felt like I was reliving it which eventually led to my uncontrollable tear shed. I eventually moved on to what happened in court and how I had just met everyone at school. As I got towards the part of my house burning down I knew he had put all the pieces together and so I left it at that.

Present time...

Now we were just sitting in his room. He hadn't said anything since I finished my retelling almost 3 minutes ago. Somewhere through the story he had grabbed my hand and was still holding it. At least he hadn't bolted for the door and left me, I mean that's a good sign right? My tears had stopped flowing down my cheeks and they were beginning to dry but I didn't dare move to wipe them away. It wasn't until 5 minutes had passed that I began to stand up to go back to my room but he gripped my hand tighter stopping me from standing up. He didn't move just blankly stared straight ahead at the wall opposite him. I closed my eyes starting to regret my decision in telling him. He was obviously stunned and probably thinking of why he ever put up with me in the first place.  He's probably wishing he never met me. I let out a shaky breath and go to slide my hand out of his but he finally says something.

"Why didn't you tell me sooner?"

"I..uh" I did not expect that. He almost sounds angry that I didn't tell him before but he seems to be trying to contain it.

"You should of told me before. I could've protected you. I would've been aware. I could've helped find him!" He let's go of my hand and starts to pace, back and forth, in front of me.

"No one could've protected me. We barely knew each other when it happened." I say looking at the ground.

"That's not the point Tris. This is serious! Someone's out to get you, how am I supposed to help you if you don't tell me these things!"

I've never seen him yell before and I certainly don't like it when its aimed at me.

"I know it's serious! For gods sake it happened to me! Do you know how much I've been through? I thought I loved him! I don't need you protecting me I just need to know that you're there if I need you." Cue the water works. "I need to know that I can trust you. That I can talk to you. I don't want you out there hunting him down because of this. I just need you to make me happy and show me that you care about me and not what happened to me." I stand up walking to the door.

"I'm sorry okay I just...can't imagine someone who would do this to you and it just infuriates me that I can't do anything about it." He says wrapping his arms around me, pulling my back against his chest.