BTS ONESHOTS (BOY X BOY )

Don't look at Others -Jikook

https://archiveofourown.org/works/2816681

Jimin forced another smile in front of the camera as his arms naturally wrapped themselves around the younger male. He laughed along the jokes the others would tell, but he wouldn't let go of the boy in his arms, because these were the few times he could hold Jeon Jungkook without having him pushing him away all too roughly.

He hated the fact that he saw their youngest as something more than just good friends. He hated that every time the other would touch him, even in the most casual manners, his heart would speed up and a smile appeared on his lips. The other boy had such a hold on him and he wished he could end it, or at least diminish it. Because, Jungkook would use that same hold he had on the older boy to have him do anything he wished, yet he would push the same boy away whenever he felt like. And that hurt Jimin, it hurt him so badly, to have the other male slap his hands away, to have him wiggle away from him, to have him calling him 'ugly', even if it was only a joke.

Jimin always pretended everything was alright, after all he was one of the 'bright', always smiling members. He always had happy go lucky mood in front and out of cameras views. He knew Jungkook was bad for him, but every single time he tried to force himself away from the other boy, the other would be tugging on his arm or suddenly hugging him, demanding his utmost attention. It was frustrating and above all cruel to the older. The raven haired male would raise the elder's expectations and hopes, only to crush them right after. That had the smaller crying silently at night, when everyone else would be asleep, because Park Jimin did not cry or looked sad in front of others. No, he was the happy, cute one in their group.

But things weren't so bad, because he always had Hoseok besides him, being a good friend. He would hug him and cheer him up whenever he noticed the boy would be looking somewhat down. Jimin was thankful to have a friend like the elder, one that would not mock him over his feelings over Jungkook, neither force him to talk about it.

It was easier when he had Taehyung and Yoongi also showing him attention and affection randomly, even without being aware of what was going on with him. But, those were usually the times in which Jungkook would act up the most as well. It was when other's showed too much attention to Jimin that the youngest would be suddenly hugging and squeezing the smaller male in his arms. He was aware of his jealously and childishly acted on it.

The black haired male knew he behaved much like a child when it came down to Jimin. He loved the attention the other gave him, even if he didn't show it, he loved how the other would cling on him always being so awfully cheesy. That was why every time he saw the other members of their group being too close, too touchy with the older he'd feel his blood boil with jealousy. He saw the older as his and his alone. He didn't quite know how to express his feelings with words or even actions, because every time Jimin was too close his heart would beat so loudly he swore the other could hear it and words got caught up on his throat. So, he just pushed the male away letting childish and mean words spill from his mouth without much though.

Jungkook hated the sad look that Jimin had in his eyes whenever he would say anything close to mean, yet he couldn't control himself. He hated himself for being the cause of the elder's sadness and he wanted to stop it, he wanted to be the cause of his happiness. Yet, he couldn't force himself to confess, he wanted nothing more but to be brave enough to say those 3 little words.

But lately the younger male was growing more and more bitter towards Hoseok. The other as of recently was always hugging, playing and hanging out with Jimin, keeping him away from him. And no matter how much he tried to snag the other's attention away, Hoseok would right after drag the smaller male away, effectively keeping him away from him.

On the other hand, Jimin was thankful for his friend's actions, to keep him away, to keep him distracted from Jungkook. He knew the older was doing his best to keep his mind off the younger male, to keep him happy and it felt nice. That was why the smaller male wished so much that he could've have fallen in love with Hoseok instead of Jungkook, because the elder was so sweet so nice, despite knowing he wouldn't get anything in return. It made him want to cry to think that the other gave him so much and he could give nothing in return. And whenever he tried to apologize to the other, the male would laugh and shake his head. "Don't worry about it Jiminnie, I just want to see you happy. Besides I love you as my little brother." And he knew this was true, yet it still stung to hear those words, because they could've been so good together if Jimin had fallen in love with Hoseok and he would see him as more than a 'little brother'. But life wasn't perfect.