The Inner Notes

Chapter 5

I woke up in the moring to see Shawn dead asleep on the floor. I got up, stumbling over his body causing him to giggle. "What are you doing?" he croacked. I cleared my throat before speaking. "I thought I'd get up and grab a shower since my mom is at work. I didn't mean to wake you up, sorry." I replied. Shawn sat up. "Nah, It's fine." Shawn's tone was husky. "I should probably head home anyway. My dad's probably worried." I nodded, smiling and grabbing a towel from my closet. "Well, I'll see you at school tomorrow I guess" Shawn nodded at me, grabbing his sweater & slipping on his pants. "Yep, see you tomorrow."

I got out of the shower awhile later and invited Marnie & Andrea over. I ran downstairs as soon as I heard the doorbell rang & Andrea stepped inside with Marnie. "So, tell us everything." Andrea blurted. I gave her a confused look. "About what?" I asked. Marnie laughed. "About Shawn, silly! Everyone knows he came over last night." I sat down on the couch. "How do people know?" I questioned. Andrea stepped in. "His friend Chris said he told everyone he was gonna go see you after the party." I sighed. "Well, nothing happened anyway so I don't know why it matters. He just stayed over here and he went home before you guys came." Marnie sat on the floor cross legged. "Did you sleep with him?" She asked. I choked on her words. "No, of course not! Why would I?" I replied. Andrea looked at me and laughed. "Why wouldn't you?" I rolled my eyes. Just because they slept with every guy they laid eyes on, doesn't mean that I do. "Because, I don't sleep around." Marnie changed the subject as quickly as she could before I said anything else. "Well, do you guys wanna go for some frozen yogurt or something?" she asked. I shook my head. "I have a ton of homework to do, I'm gonna stay home today." Andrea rolled her eyes. "Fine, I guess we'll go. Text us later!" 

 There was something different about Shawn. I mean, at school he was a total dick but when you're alone with him he's a total sweetheart. My mind said I liked him, and I wasn't too sure what my heart was telling me. There was still a part of Shawn that made me want to Vomit on the spot whenever I saw him. The fact that he could easily get in any girls pants in the matter of 2.2 seconds made me sick. Maybe I was wrong about this whole thing. Maybe Shawn just wanted to get in my pants. He didn't like me for me, he liked me because he knew that if he treated my well enough maybe in a few months I'd just end up sleeping with him just for him to leave.

Monday rolled along and I sat at the lunch table waiting for Marnie & Andrea. I rolled my eyes in disgust when Shawn sat across from me. "Sam, you've been avoiding me all day. What's wrong?" he asked. I set down my fork and crossed my arms. "Just admit it, Shawn. You just want to get in my pants." I replied. Shawn looked at me confused. "Look, I know I can be a dick. but I'm a totally different person than you think and you know that. I like you, I really really like you. And if I didn't show you on that date then I don't know how else to show you." Shawn stood up to leave, but quickly turned around again. "I'm just so tired of people thinking that I was born a douche bag. But if you don't like me then fine, I didn't think you would anyway." He spat. 

Maybe Shawn was right?