only mine

Unexpected reality.

Readers, to make this chapter more dramatic, listen to Be Alright by Justin Bieber.

Chapter 11

Amanda's POV:

Everything happened so fast. The woman left but she came back moments later.

-what do you want from me?- she yelled at Roxie. I tried to reach over to her and calm her. She had a gun. I gulped and Jonathan screamed. The woman pointed at me and she fired it. I felt incredibly cold. I heard Roxie yell. Man, so many bad things happened and I had just arrived.

All of a sudden I started screaming. I was in a bed. It wasn't my bed. Where was I? I was in my room. Well, actually a room I recognised. It was my aunt's house? Had it all been a dream? Jonathan came through the door.

-hey, are you okay?- he had a sexy sleepy voice. I bit my lip and nodded.

-umm, yeah I'm fine. What happened?- I asked. I didn't really know what I had done.

-well, um you were.... You were screaming and I think......- he looked at the floor and I followed his eyes. I had knocked a vase. I felt super stupid. I started crying.

-hey, hey don't worry about it. It was old anyways it would've broken any other day.- he came closer and sat next to me. He gave me comfort and it felt really good.

I put my face on his chest and started crying. He caressed my hair softly. His touch was gentle and enjoyable. The way his hands brushed my hair made me feel loved.

(I'm listening to Thought of you- Justin Bieber and I seriously want to cry)

- Amanda are you sure you're ok?- he asked. I shook my head and I let my tears run wild. I was suffering in silence. I had taken to much.

First, my dad dies. The day I found out I was too hurt to cry. At his funeral, I didn't cry either. I just looked at him. He looked peaceful. He had finally left this cruel and harsh world. I was actually happy for him. He didn't have to suffer anymore.

Second, one of my best friends left me when I told her I was moving. She just left without an explanation. Well, I still had more friends but it had hurt a little.

Third, I fall in love with a boy. Not exactly in love I guess.

-do you want to talk about it?- I nodded. He sat across from me. He was holding my hand. I smiled but I was still crying.

I told him all about my dad. That he had died of cancer. I told him about my best friend and how she left me without an explainable reason. He gave me a sad smile. I couldn't take it. How did my life became this hurtful. I used to be happy. I smiled through all my rough days because that's how I was.

Not even a bad day could ruin my happiness. That was until my dad died.

I actually told Jonathan that I had cut a few times but I stopped before it started being a habit. He asked me to show him my scars. I lifted my shorts to show him the scars on my legs. He touched them gently and covered his mouth.

He started crying and he hugged me tightly. I hugged him too. I needed that hug.

-I can't believe you have suffered this much. How did you kept that inside?- he asked.

-that's how I am. I suffer in silence.- I shrugged. He looked at me and smiled. I smiled too.

- you have to believe in yourself.- he said. I smiled but I kept crying. Somehow, I felt better. I felt happiness again.

-that reminds me of Justin Bieber.- he laughed quietly. I smiled. I just, well yeah everything kind of reminds me of my Idols. Oops sorry I guess.

- I like his songs. Well some of them.- he said. I felt my eyes go wide with surprise.

- really?- then I noticed what he was doing. He was trying to get off the subject. I liked it.

- yeah, I like ummm.... I think it's called take you and boyfriend.- I smiled.

-what about when he was younger?- I asked.

- umm...... I guess One Time is cool.- I felt happy. I smiled and he smiled back.

- who is Roxie?- I asked remembering my dream.

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O my 😱😱😱😱 what is going to happen now? I felt relieved that it was all a dream. Like I don't know about you. Poor Amanda she really did suffer a lot. Man, I feel sorry for her. Hey, did you notice they were alone *_* oo.

This chapter is for you. I hope everything is okay. Be strong baby, 'cause everything's gonna be alright :* <<<< Anaissa