While Running With Wild Dogs: A Mafia Story (BWWM) ON HOLD

VIII

Spencer Addison

Bianca and Yomi come up beside me, "Maybe you're overreacting, I think you should talk to him." Bianca nods her head in agreement. I stop and stare at Yomi, " Given the fact that you know about my past, why would even suggest something like that?" " Because you didn't see his face when you left. It looked like he had just seen someone kill his new born baby. He actually looked scared and heartbroken." Bianca spoke out. I broke down, but not in a "I'm being empathetic" way, it was more of a "I'm so fucking pissed, sad, and confused" way. I run as fast as I can up the stairs with my boot. I hurry into my room and slam the door. I feel my sobs consume me. I lean against the door and slide to the ground. My vision blurs, tears stinging my eyes, begging to fall. I let go allowing my tears to fall freely. I am stuck between a rock and a hard place for the millionth time in my life. I don't know what to do. I want to be with him I just don't want to be living that kind of life again. The life of being worried about your boyfriend being arrested and locked away from you forever. The life of worrying about whether your house is going to be raided or not. The life of sleeping alone at night because he has ' business ' to attend to. The life of secrets,
I can't do it again. I'm not strong enough. I know for sure, that my heart can't handle it again.

"Spencer, are you ok? Its Gianna, can you open the door for me?" I stay silent, hugging my knees close to me. "miele Ho davvero bisogno di aprire la porta.(honey I really need you to open the door.)" I rise from the floor and face the door. I place my hand on the knob and open the door only to see that Gianna totally ambushed me. Towering over me, Gianni stands directly in front of me. To the right of him is Gianna. Man do I hate twins. I look at him, he had an apologetic look on his face, almost like he was giving me puppy dog eyes. I turn and look at Gianna she mouthed sorry and walked off. I turn away from the door and walk toward my bed to sit. I turn my attention toward the window. It was actually beautiful outside despite the fact that it was raining. I wonder how everything is going at 'La Piccola Sedia Nera'. SHIT. I'm supposed to work tonight, what am I gonna do.

I feel the bed shift next to me. I turn and look at him. Taking in his features. I sigh,"Why didn't you tell me?" I calmly question. "Well that isn't really the first thing you tell someone you want to be with..." He replies. He grabs my hand. "I wasn't trying to keep it from you, I just didn't think it was important enough to be brought up at the moment." I narrow my eyes at him, " Not important enough... that is the most bull shit excuse I've ever heard. What if something would've happened to you, where would that leave me? Confused and terrified." "I don't expect you to accept it right away, all I'm asking is for you to give it a chance. And after that if you still don't want to be with me I understand." He was staring down at our hands. I grip is hand, "Who said I didn't want to be with you, I think that's why I'm so angry. Do you know how bad it is to start a relationship out with being secretive and dishonest," I sigh, "I'll give it a chance. You have to promise me one thing." "Yes, anything." The look of excitement on his face was heart warming. "You always have to come back to me, you can not, I repeat, CAN NOT, die on me." I bore into his eyes. The look on his face, it was sympathetic. "I swear to you I will always come back to you, no matter what." He engulfs me in a hug and showers my face with kisses, making me giggle. " Ew did I just giggle...gross." He laughs at me. " Yea yea laugh it up." I quip. "I think we should start from the beginning ya know, take it slow." He gave me a soft look and nodded his head in agreement. "I don't know how I feel about living here thought, I feel like I'm a bother. Especially with Bianca and Yomi living here too." I state while turning my attention back toward the window. He gently gripped my chin and turn my head so I was facing him. "You could never bother me. And as for your friends, if you're happy with them being here then I'm happy with them being here." He gently placed a kiss on my lips. "Well I gotta work in less than two hours so I should get ready." I say standing to my feet. " Uh I'm sorry but I can't let you do that." Gianni says looking up at me. "Huh? Why not?" I raise my right eyebrow. "Because you and your friends are in danger." I narrow my eyes at him," wha...what are you talking about?" "Greco is trying to get to me by any means possible. And he knows the only thing I care about more than my business is my family, so he's probably going to try and take you from me, as a sad attempt at pushing me into backing off and letting him run my territory. After what he did to my parents, he's lucky I didn't wanna scare you or else I would have killed him right there. But anyway..." I cut his sentence short, "What did he do to your parent?" "When I was 16, he was 32. He was in love with my mother and obsessed with my father. He wanted everything he had. His territory, his men, his wife. Every year on their anniversary my mother and father would go on our family boat. He had one of his goon load the boat with c4 and when they got far enough off shore, he killed them. I swear to you will always come back to you but I gotta make sure you come back to me too. I will never let him hurt you." I sit back down on the bed and wrap my arms around him placing my head on his shoulder. "Okay I won't got to work, but you've gotta promise. I more secrets." " I promise" he wraps his pinky around mine making it look insignificant. "Hey what did you mean by 'given the fact that you know my past'?" He said making my heart drop to my feet. "A while back about a year now, I dated someone in the life of crime and he ended up being a lying, cheating, stealing, rapist...so I dumped him." "I'm not really your average drug dealing half-wit so you won't needa worry about any of that." I lie back on the bed, "Well I'm gonna go to sleep because B and Yomi are probably gonna make me go swimming with them
Tomorrow," "Ok, but you have to promise me you won't leave the house." He gave me a stern look. "Okay, Okay, I promise." Damn was Greco really that spiteful, I guess I'll find out.