I kinda feel like I'm back where I was a year ago. I feel like isolation is the only way to avoid seeing the parts of my life I'm not happy with. I can laugh and joke and even put on a convincing smile. Sadly the smile is not one that will fall into a "fake it till you make it" scenario. I don't want to be around everyone I just want to be alone.
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I miss JT so much right now it hurts, and I have very few friends, which I'm cool with don't get me wrong, but I feel like only one of them can be going right at a time. I feel like anytime one relationship is good the rest are bad. I just want my life to find my life correctly pieced together and its not happening. My school stuff got super messed up this past year and I'm really struggling to except that, and honestly probably just accepting growing up because now I have to do it without someone who would've stood by me through everything.
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Midnight Memories
RandomFrom letters to my, to notes from my darkest times with anxiety and depression and finding out who my real friends are going into adulthood.
