Yours Forever.

Chapter 34

Rosie's POV :
10 days had passed since I talked to Luke.

He didn't try to contact me, even for once. Obviously he couldn't, I burned all the bridges that connected us without even telling him the reason for doing it.
Since I lost contact with him, my life became so isolated. Emptiness was a part of me and silence surrounded me completely. I spent hours writing my diary and noting all what I felt about him. All I did the entire was to shed tears and write my emotions.
I noted how it felt like leaving the love of my life behind like this and not even letting him know the cause of it.

The only thoughts in my mind were that he must've been hating on me at that moment. He must've been blaming for all the pain that I caused him.
These abstractions just made me lie into the puddle of my own tears the whole day.

My mother considered this to be a temporary hurt so all she did was to ignore me. Obviously, she was splenetic so I didn't blame her for her annoyance.

Later that evening when I was doing my homework, my phone beeped.
I unlocked my phone to check who it was.
Zhenya;
"You are such a dumb person Rosie. You broke up with Luke. And it has literally been 10 days and you did not bother to inform me? What kind of a best friend are you? Who do you think you are??!!"

It was her right to be incandescent. It was my fault for not informing her. I was just really lost in my own world of grief. I needed some time to take that all out. I believe that when you talk about a feeling to other people, you feel it more. Keeping it buried in yourself makes it easier for you to get over. But it was getting even more tough every day to put myself together.

Everytime I remembered Luke I bursted into tears and when I cried, it was so hard to get up and again to pretend like nothing happened.
I replied to Zhenya with all the strength I had.

"Zhen, I just couldn't handle that relationship. Luke's growing love for me was becoming a burden and I already have loads of responsibilities on my head. I can't take care of an over grown man child."

I had to lie to her. I knew that Zhenya always blurt out stuff at the wrong place and I didn't want Luke to know anything about what his mother said and what my mother desired. I just wanted Luke to know that he should stay away.

"Are you sick? Luke is such a mature and intellectual guy. What wrong did he ever do to you. Girl, you're making the biggest mistake of your life. Just don't do that."
I knew she would say that. And she was tight  what wrong did he ever do to me for which he's still suffering. He just made an immense mistake of loving a girl who could never give nothing and won't ever be able to.

"I'm sensible enough to take my own decisions. Zhen you're my best friend, not his". Try to understand me."
I pleaded.

"Fine. I'm with you in whatever decision you are up to. Just tell me when you'll be at school?"

"I'll be there from Monday. I'm just not in this city right now. My father had some therapy session thingy. I don't know what. So I'll be back in two days."

"Uh. Hope your dad is fine?"

"Oh yes absolutely. He's okay now. He was in the hospital that night when I broke up with Luke. Right the next day doctors told us to take him to a state nearby for a better treatment. So we're there."

"Oh. You didn't talk to me for days Rosie. You've been through a lot. I'm here for you okay?"

"Thanks Zhen."

"Luke called me like a million times this week. He wants to know the reason."

"I don't wana talk about him. Just tell him to stay away. I'm really not interested in looking after him like a baby all the time. His mother is still alive to do that."

"Rosie, stop being so mean."

"Ok bye."
I couldn't lie to her anymore. I couldn't be bad to Luke or say bad about him. He was perfect. And counting his flaws in front of people when deep inside my heart I loved him was so tough.

Luke was someone whom I knew won't let me go so easily. But even the slightest of his efforts to get close to me would melt my heart and I wanted to avoid that.

My whole life I had been alone, struggling for my mother's desires and suffering my dad's behaviour. All the financial and moral declines I witnessed.
I never had such friends who would sit back to support me, they all just laughed with me but nobody was there who would listen to my problems and help me find a solution.
Luke was a replacement to all the problems I had ever faced. He was my best friend, my soulmate. But even he was gone.

Before he came into my life, I was used to of being alone. But since he came in, I got habitual of depending entirely on him.

"Please leave me Luke."
I whispered to my self and fell on my knees, crying.

Rosie is trying her best to push Luke away but Luke is not giving up. Leaving Luke is kind of turning Zhenya against Rosie too. Will Zhenya really support Rosie for the decision she has made.
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