Yours Forever.

Chapter 40.

Rosie's POV:

*5 years later, writing her diary.*

"The depth of your love today will become the depth of your wound tomorrow. Don't let your heart get ripped into a million pieces just because you're in love.  I wish I could rip my heart and see how you feel doing it everyday. Everyday I wake up with the hope that today I will write a new chapter of my life, despite the hole created by you here in my heart. But that hole is where I want to live. That completes me by making me feel incomplete by missing the love you gave. That weakens me to fight the battles withing me hence making me stronger to face all the difficulties. The essence of your love was and is everything I've ever had and I would never desire to lose it. Never. Just stay there, glowing like the eye catching red paint in the canvas of my life, making it more beautiful and colorful. Don't let the faded shades of green take over the view. Burn brighter and make the canvas more fascinating and giving me a hope to re-paint it. No matter how deep the wound becomes after you leave, I will feel the pain and remember the depth of your love that I received. I will pick up each and every broken piece of my heart and frame it because every piece will glow and witness the love it carries. The love for you. I heard no matter how much love you give away, not even half of it returns but I don't even need a slight bit of it. All I need in my life is you. Your presence in my life is enough to set my soul free from the cage of lonliness. But fate doesn't want us together and I will never impose myself on you. Other than that, I love you and I always will.
You ripped my heart by loving me so much and then taking it all away with you. You broke me by making me so used to of yourself and then suddenly not being there. But it's not you who is faulty, it's me who gave my entire self to you. It's me who depended so much on you. It's me who did everything I could just to keep you happy. It was never you who was wrong, and it will never be you who will be wrong. It's me. And you? You're perfect with your imperfections."

She closes her diary and advances towards the bed. She lies on her bed and keeps her head on the pillow. Her pillow becomes all wet with tears rolling down her eyes. She checks her phone but she had recieved no message. She closes her eyes and lie straight on her back, her face facing the cieling of her room, thinking about where life brought her. She never imagined things would turn out to be that way. Her eyes filled with more water and she began to scream. She screamed her lungs out just to take out all of what she holding onto but it didn't work.

She closed her eyes and flashbacks rans through her mind. The good times and the bad times were flashing like perfectly captured pictures in her mind. She didn't know what she was upto or what would help her prevent her heart from breaking more. She just knew that she loved him and she couldn't picture her life without him. The thoughts of being incomplete without him ran shivers down her spine.

Even the thought of leaving him would break her. And the thought of him leaving her would make her lose her breath.

"I just know that I would die without you. You're a part of me but you don't need me anymore. Or maybe you do but I can't see. I'm afraid of those dark nights I would have to pass without you if you leave me."
She whispered to herself.

Her body began to tremble and a sudden rise in her body temperature occurred. She felt cold but she desired his warmth. She needed his presence, his arms to hold her but they weren't there. She wanted him to paint her lips with his love but he wouldn't.

"I need you, but where are you? You promised to protect me from all the pain in the world and that you would never let a single tear shed from my eyes and even if it did, you will hold me and love me till the end. You said you'd always be my shelter but why aren't you here now? Where did all your promises go? Why did you leave me alone, lost and faded in the dark.?"

She cried till her eyes closed and she fell asleep.

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