Release Me

Chapter Seven

Damon's POV

After everything that happened today I just- I don't even know anymore. I know Stefan woke me up for Bonnie's sake but she could've gone without the added grief. Now I have screwed up. Royally. Nothing new but I ruined things between me and the only person on my priority list.

I can hear her music blasting through the walls but one song in particular stood out. This was the one song that she sang at the very top of her lungs. Her voice was so alluring and the actual track started to sound like background music against her voice. I was mesmerized by her angelic tone singing with so much emotion.

Something on my nightstand caught my eye. I just looked at it for a while before walking over and picking it up. I sat back down on my bed clutching on to Bonnie's bag like it was the last piece of her that remained.

As I was about to set it down again something unfamiliar got my attention. I knew the contents of Bonnie's bag like it was my own but this just seemed so out of place.

After a moment of debating on whether or not I should have a peek I pushed my morals out of the way and done it anyway.

I wish I had done the right thing for once in my life and just left it alone because what I seen really cemented what I had actually caused her and I couldn't face it. I didn't want to admit it but now there is no denying it.

I pulled out three little pill bottles addressed to miss Bonnie Sheila Bennett.

Lorazepam, Escitalopram, Lamotrigine.

Seeing these things in her bag is enough to make me explode. The very sight of them is making me lose my mind. That girl is so damn broken and I'll bet over half of the reason why traces back to something I done to fuck her life up like this.

Not able to control my rage, I lashed out throwing the bottles against the wall. I punched holes in the wall, threw books and furniture around trying to release some of my frustration. I felt hot tears of anger come out of my now darkened eyes.

What I done wasn't intentional but all of this was preventable and while everyone kept living their happy Damon free lives the love of my life has been self medicating, for the past what three years because of it all.

"I took the good out of her. I took everything from her!" I screamed in a fit of rage repetitively laying punches into the bloodstained wall.

Stefan charged in almost knocking my door off of the hinges in the process. He stood wide-eyed in the doorway taking in the bomb sight that was my bedroom.

"What the hell is going on?!" He angrily yelled

"What happened? I happened! I ruined her life Stefan! Me, Damon Salvatore!

He just looked at me like a crazy person. I pointed to the corner of my room that lay the half full pill bottles.

I whispered while sliding down the wall. "I ruined Bonnie stef."

He just looked at me confused. I was too busy thinking about Bonnie to really hear what he was saying, he was kind of just some white noise in the background.

"Are you listening to me at all?"

"Of course I'm not listening to you little brother."

"Why are you so hung up on her? It's only Bonnie."

Hearing those words escape Stefans mouth sent a cold shiver down my spine.