Release Me

Chapter Six

Bonnie's Pov

I looked down at my hands swallowing the massive lump in my throat. I went to speak but nothing came out, I just sat there dumbfounded. Noticing my inability to speak Stefan decided to instead.

"Over the past three years i've seen everything you've gone through. As much as you try to hide from everyone you couldn't hide it from me, not this time. The 'secret' appointments, the day trips out of town, i know about it all. Why didn't you just tell me? Or Caroline? Or anyone for that matter?"

I don't know how I let myself become this sloppy. I made sure everyone was oblivious to the things I was doing but I should've known that it would be close to impossible to hide anything from saint Stefan.

"Okay you got me. I thought I had things under control for the first week or so after, you know when things simmered down but it was almost like the quieter it got the more i started to feel trapped and alone, especially without my magic I-I just became so detached from myself.

I became so anxious that even simple things like leaving the house would seriously trigger me. At first I had no idea what it was because it was only Damon right?

It's not like he was anything more than a friend but i just felt so unwanted and it dawned upon me that I will never be the important person in anyone's life. It sounds so dumb out loud I should just stop talking" I chuckled.

"It's only you and I here Bonnie and I am in no place to judge you, but if you're not ready to go this deep with me I understand and I can give you a ride home if you wan't?" He offered giving me a warming smile.

"Home? I don't exactly have one of those anymore Stefan"

"Well you're more than welcome to stay here but i doubt you'd want to with ole boy up there in his cave"

Unable to keep a straight face I cracked up laughing at the term Stefan just used to refer to Damon.

"You're right staying here with 'ole boy' is the last thing I want but I'll save the inconvenience and suck it up. Just give me the set of kitchen knives and i'll make my way to the guest room" I said to him serious as ever.

He sat there and laughed at me for a good minute before realizing that i was in fact dead serious.

"Oh you were serious?" He asked a little concerned.

"Dead serious" I replied a little too coldly.

He nervously laughed before getting up and locking the knife drawer.

"Judging by your lack of sarcasm and/or comical humor I'm not going to risk it this time but what i will do is order some Chinese food so go get comfortable."

I sweetly smiled at Stefan's kindness. I turned around to walk up the stairs when i heard Stefan yell out "I also picked up what looked like the important stuff from your car and it's all in there." I smiled to myself before yelling back "Thanks Stef, i appreciate it."

I made my way to the top of the boarding house staircase and boy i was puffed. "I really need to start working out" I thought out loud.

I opened the door to the guest room and to my surprise everything was set up for me. I opened up the closet and i seen most of my clothes tidily hanging up.  I shook my head at the weird amount of care Stefan was taking with me.

I walked in to the unnecessarily large bathroom and turned the shower on to the hottest setting. I grabbed my dock from on top of the dresser and connected my phone to it blasting out the entirety of Rihanna's Anti album. 

I stripped down, dimmed the lights and stepped under the steaming hot shower head.

With every drop of scorching hot water that ran down my body in to the drain, went all my stresses.