SILENT RIVERS

DADDY LESSONS

N'kaytris POV

He still avoids me at school. Laughs at me with his friends in class. But i didn't expect anything else.

It's a good thing I'm not so gullible to believe that me helping him would've changed his mind. People don't change. No one  can tell me otherwise.

If you know someone who was good to you from the beginning and then they change when something happens, they were never good from the start.

People don't change they just simply reveal their inner person overtime .

My mom says i judge people too much. But it's not that.

I've been  lied to so many times that i can tell your lying before you open your mouth.

I've been through so much that my Mind is trained to psycho analyse every body in my surroundings.

It turned into severe panic attacks. And severe anger problems.

I don't fight though. I know every weak spot on the human body; and out of fear of killing someone in a fight, i avoid people to avoid problems.

I walk down the hall with my face straight as an arrow. Not looking to the left or the right nor behind me.

My mom says that whoever is behind me isn't important.

I'm afraid i can't use the same approach towards my past.

"Freak alert", Taylor shrieked as i descended the steps.

I heard her group chuckle and i know his voice is a among the lot.

"How's your mother?" She taunted as i continued walking.

"Still less of a bitch than yours", i snarled walking away.

"I doubt it!", she shouted ,"bitch!"

Why can't she just leave me the hell alone?

I avoid her every chance i get. But no, she just has to see me.

There's always that one annoying person who keeps coming back, right?

As i entered the parking lot, i heard screams. And the shout of the word fight.

I turn on my heels in the direction of the commotion. I like watching people argue about he said she said.

"You were supposed to be my friend", a blonde girl screamed at a brunette  shoving her.

"You slept with the guy i liked Ashley!", the girl shoved back.

"So Ashley's a man stealer ,"i concluded in my head.

"Casey we both know he's interested in me", the other girl screamed,"i just said he liked you to make you feel better!"

"Bitch!" I scoffed mentally.

After awhile the screaming back and forth got to my head and i left.

Girls! Sometimes i just can't stand how stupid we are when it comes to love.

Knowing all you know about guys and how they can be, you still set yourself up to be treated like shit.
Where's the sense in that?

My mom was with my father for 14 long years before they got married and he still left.

She knew him from the age of 13 and he's 6 years older than her, so connect the dots. He left when i was 8.

She stuck with him through thick and thin and he still left.

She made sure he was fed and wore clean clothes.

But that didn't keep him.

So you're gonna decide it's forever after meeting a guy for 3 months ?

Despite the anger I feel towards my father, he thought me something valuable.

DON'T TRUST LEOPLE! CAUSE PEOPLE LIE!

AND THAT'S A FACT.

Unfortunately for me, i ain't never gone be able to threaten a guy with my experience in handling fire arms.

P.S. i wish i was there to see Jz face when Beyonce sang Daddy lessons for the first time.

She must've shut him up! Had him thinking

" I'm leaving Becky babe, I'm just realizing her hair ain't that good. I love you. You ain't gotta use Daddy's lessons right now. "

Then Beyonce would be like
" I told you to slow the hell down cause they don't love you like i love you. If i shoot your ass now i can tell the police it was out of drunken love".

Cue the ' try me bitch  face' she was wearing in obssesed and Jz would be wearing one of them Kevin Hart surprise face.

Okay, enough mocking for today. Although it is kinda funny, Back to the point.

I've liked countless of guys.
(Channing Tatum and Corey Fogelmanis being at the top of the list).

There was a time i liked Justin Beiber too but I've come to the reality that no one will ever suit him better than Selena Gomez.

Seriously, those too need to make up their mind's that deep down they still love each other.

Well atleast that's what i think.

I'm currently at home watching Insidious.

Ikr! Great movie!

I hate those old sappy love movies. But real talk' The Fault In Our Stars and Me Before You' had me crying for days.

Now i get why that kid said love is the strongest force on earth.

Children! They say the truth like it's saying you're welcome.

I love kids. Heck i practically raised my 3 younger siblings. I know right. Big sister stuff!.

But from my mom's experience and the hurt she suffered from the hands of my father, I'm never having kids. I couldn't stand knowing that my decision to have him or her would hurt her.

I'd rather adopt. Spare myself the trouble, you know what i mean?

I've always said I'll adopt 10 children when I'm rich. Be like the Single version of Angelina Jolie And Brad Pitt.

But that's just how i see it. Daddy's lessons paid off.

He did make a solider out of me.

So i stick by myself. Cause that way i won't have to deal with too much bullshit.