Zayn's POV
"Please" Niall begged "I-I want to!"
"No you don't" I shook my head
"I do!"
He'd been begging me for the last fifteen minutes that I have sex with him... I'm not doing it
"You want to make me happy"
"What's the difference?" He asked
"Niall, I'm not doing anything to you" I lifted his chin "you don't want it, but I do... That means I'm not allowing it"
"I do want it"
"Listen gorgeous" I sighed, sitting down on his bed
He climbed into my lap, hugging me tight
"I know you're still scared of what I did" I said "it's easy to see Niall... I want you to feel safe when we do that again but even you being near me makes you uneasy sometimes"
"So?" Niall asked "you won't do it again"
"Its so sweet of you to want to make me happy" I smiled "but, you have to be happy first okay? You have to be able to trust me and-"
"Let me top then"
My eyes blew wide. "Y-you top?"
"Sure" Niall nodded
"No" I shook my head "absolutely not"
"But-"
"No buts, we're not having sex" I glared
"You said I could do what I wanted for you" Niall murmured
"Not this one" I sighed
"What if... I seduce you into it?" Niall asked
"What do you mean?"
"If I get you sexually frustrated enough" Niall grinned
"Niall, drop the subject"
"But you're hot" he mumbled "and I'm not even a virgin"
"So?"
"So YOLO, I want you up my arse" he said
"YOLO isn't an excuse to be a slut" I scolded Niall "it encourages living life to the fullest"
"Then fuck me!" He whined
"No, stop saying that word"
"Fuck"
"Niall" I warned
"Fuck, fuck, fuck, fuck" he smirked, reciting the word
"Stop it" I growled
"Fuck"
I was ready to yell at him and the moment I opened my mouth to do so he whimpered, shrinking and climbing away from me, look at me wide eyed. He was waiting to be screamed at and he looked terrified
"Niall..." I sighed "you know I don't want to shout at you"
"Then just-"
"If you say it again I am going to smack you" I threatened
He looked down at his lap, his breaths quick and short... I know I'm scaring him
"I uhm.. I'm going to shower" Niall mumbled
"Alright" I nodded
"Do you... Want to come?" Niall asked quietly
"Do you mind?"
