Unsteady

Dead, Alive, God Knows

-Do you ever stop asking questions? You can sleep here if you want. I've slept here many times and it's really great. I'll be staying here tonight.
-Thanks.. I reply.
He smiles and rubs my hair.
-H-hey do you have a cigaret? I haven't had one in awhile and um-
-Yeah here you go, I say as I give him a cigaret, interrupting him.
-Thank you, I'll be right back.
He opens the door and goes outside. He closes the door behind him so the cold doesn't get in. While he is outside, I take a look at the picture again. He seemed so happy on the picture. I can't believe he lost them. He is really strong. Imagine losing everything that you love, everything that has such a huge value to you. I don't think I could make it. I quickly put the picture back where it was before he comes back in.
Namjoon gets back in and invites me to join him in the blankets. I crawl and warm myself up in them.
I decide to speak up.
-What were their names? I ask.
-Um, Min Yoongi, Jung Hoseok, Jeon Jungkook, Park Jimin and um Kim Seokjin, he replies.
I nod.
-Do.. do you mind telling me what happened? I ask.
He hesitates for a bit.
-Our lives fell apart. We, we weren't on the same page anymore. It all started when Jungkook, Jimin and Hoseok died in a car accident. They drove off a bridge after another car hitting them. That made all of us go crazy. We knew things would never be the same. Shortly after that, Yoongi.. he was always really mentally unstable. That incident was too much for him. He committed suicide. And Seokjin.. I haven't ever seen him or talked to him since. He... he's probably dead too.

As Namjoon said those last words, a tear went down his face. I sit up and hug him.
-I am so, so sorry..
He starts crying.
-They.. they were my family,
-Let's go to sleep, ok? I say.
He nods and slides under the covers. I get behind him and cuddle with him.
-Goodnight, I say to him.
-Goodnight