Unsteady

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-But, Jungkook starts as he looks up.
Namjoon and I look at him.
-Technically, it was "self" defense. You told me he was beating up your mother, right? He asks.
I nod.
-Then.. then you'll be fine. Since your father was already caught being abusive and almost killing you, the police will be on your side
I look at him.
-No.. I must be punished for my sins.. I say to him.
-Taehyung-ah! Says Namjoon.
A tear goes down my face.
-Taehyung, it's gonna be alright. Just go with it, will you? Jungkook tells me.
I sob.
Jungkook wraps his arm around my shoulders. Namjoon puts his hand on my head. They try to console me.
They can try as much as they want,
But I just killed someone.
I'll never be able to move on.

We go back to my house. Jungkook calls his colleague, and they do their work. Namjoon decides to come with me to the police station.
I fill out a police report and stay until the early hours of the morning. Jungkook brings me coffee.
-Thanks, I say.
He smiles and pats my head.
-You'll be able to go soon, he says.
-I don't want to leave without you though.. I tell him with a smile.
He chuckles and holds my hand. We can't do much more since were still at the police station.
I am sitting on a chair in the closed waiting room. Jungkook is standing in front of me.
He bites his lips and puts his finger on mine. He smirks.
I bite my lips and shyly look down. He squats down and puts his finger under my chin. He looks at my lips and leans in. I gently push his finger away and look at him.
-Let's not do it here, I don't want to get you fired.. I say to him.
He looks down.
-You're right.. although I just can't wait anymore.. He replies.
I smile.
He gets back up and walks out. He goes to see his colleague. Namjoon gets back from the bathroom.
-Yah I can't wait to get back home and get a good night of sleep. I didn't plan my last day of school night to end up like this.. but it's okay. At least we are together, so it could be worst, he says.
-You're right, thanks for coming along. Jungkook told me we could leave soon.
-Great, he replies.
He looks at me.
-Oh and also, please be careful, he tells me.
-What do you mean? About what? I ask.
-About Jungkook.. He's a cop and all.. and he is also and adult, and-and just be careful with him okay? Don't do too crazy stuff.. I don't want anything bad to happen to you, he tells me.
-Don't worry, Namjoon. I can't have kids, that's the great thing about being gay, I jokingly tell him.
He chuckles.
-Yeah I know, although still be on guard, not for children obviously but you know, the other things, he shyly says.
-STDs? I bluntly ask.
-Yeah, um. That, he quietly says.
I smile.
-You're cute, I like you, I tell him.
-Stop, He tells me while laughing.
Jungkook gets back in the waiting room. He looks at his watch.
-You guys can go home, he says.
I look at my phone.
"오전4:13"
-Ok, thank you for everything, says Namjoon.
Jungkook responds with a smile.
Namjoon looks at Jungkook and I, then walks out after telling me that he will wait for me outside. I nod.
-Can't you come with me..? I tell Jungkook.
-Sorry, I really can't they need me right now.. although don't worry, I'll catch ya' latter.. I promise, he says before giving me a wink.
I pout.
-Alright then.. I tell him as I get up and start walking outside the room.
He grabs my wrist as I walk beside him.
-It'll be worth the wait, trust me, he says with a smirk.
I blush.
-I trust you, I say.
He smiles and lets go of my wrist.
I walk outside and go to Namjoon.
-Come on, he says.
We walk outside of the police station and start to walk towards his house.
We take a shower, eat, and talk. As we are sitting on his bed, we randomly start to talk about kinks.
-What are your kinks? He asks me.
-Hmm.. good question. I would say cigarets, maybe alcohol. And handcuffs&cop uniforms are cool too.
-Interesting, is that why you always do these illegal things? To get arrested by sexy cops? He jokingly says.
I laugh.
-What about you? I ask him.
-I don't really know to be honest. I'm still a virgin after all, haha. But I feel like yours apply to me as well, he replies.
I nod.
-Don't you think we should go to sleep? He tells me.
-I don't know, I'm really not tired to be honest with you.
-Me neither actually.
We laugh.
My phone vibrates. I see Namjoon jump from the corner of my eye. The vibrating must of scared him. Or reminded him of something.
-I got a message. Hold on, I tell him.
He nods.
I look at my phone.