Desire For Business

Funeral for breakfast

I enter slowly looking him up and down, slowly putting my purse and keys up before turning to him. I take a deep breath and begin to turn around and the smell of his comforting cologne soothes my nose and I am face to face with his deep dark moistened eyes staring into my mine. "Parker, get out of my face..." He doesn't move but instead puts a fist atop my shoulder on the wall so I can not move, I see a drip of a tear fall down one side of his cheek and another on the other side falling slowly behind. We sit there in silence for a minute before he whispers, "I am sorry" he says it painfully sincere, that it weakens me. I put my chin up wipe his tears from his checks with my fingers and hold his chin. "This is my fault, this never could have worked and you should have nothing to be sorry about, I was using you to fill a gap and that is unfair-" He cuts me off, pleading "Charis, I knew about it, I agreed to it!" his voice gets louder "Jesus Charis how can you just make decisions so black and white and pretend me sleeping with your best friend didn't hurt you?" I push him, "Yeah it hurt!" I scream, "You could have slept with any whore or slutty bitch that chases you, but you had to go to her??!!" Parker put his head down "I wanted you to be more hurt than me, I know that was selfish because its impossible because I love you." The room goes stiff as if the A.C stopped blowing, "and you do not love me, like I love you" He then crashes his lips into mine and my head hits the wall pretty hard, he quickly undoes my pants while holding my hand in-between his fingers above my head and undoes his and pulls my legs up with his other hand and thrusts himself into me forcefully. His head is at my neck slightly kissing and breathing panted breaths that leave me weak, I push him off me. he looks confused. I take off my pants off all the way and kick him to the ground, not hard but painfully, I then sit on his still very erect dick and I ride him til I cum over and over and eventually he does too. I lay my upper body on his leaving my head at his chest and look up to him. "I love you too Parker, I feel lost without you and you hurt me when you were meant to comfort me but he is back tomorrow and there can be no more us" He sits up while still inside me and lay his head on my shoulder and his arms wraped around me and mine on his, his quiet sobs and mine in unison were a bandid rip off. We both we morning the loss of our intimate special relationship that meant more than just a relationship. "Can I sleep with you, one last time? I just want to fall asleep with the smell of your hair and ass perfectly laid ontop my lap and my arm tucked between your breast as if I am holding your heart in place...from falling out..." I nod and he brings the food and we eat in silence, sleep in silence and cry in silence. The best part of my santitany was now being mourned and my comfort was being burned and tomorrow I would have to face pain and hunger all alone. Yeah, Kalisto will be there but I do not know what kind of disaster I created that will be of his face and body, the hate I will feel when I see Dris after looking at Kalisto. I try to sleep but couldn't I just kept thinking my end game was him, and he will be there tomorrow and I have been unfaithful while he was being tormented. I eventually calm myself by the breaths of Parkers sleeping patterns and awake to what feels like 10 minutes later to a blarring alarm clock. I go to get up and Parker stops me. "Lay here a minute let me get your coffee ready and some breakfeast for you on the porch, I'll let you know when its ready." He kisses me a long peck kiss and walks away with tears in his eyes. I begin to get emotional too, our last sleepover and our last breakfast. It truly was a death. I start to think of my outfit, make up, hair as I lay in bed to make up for the time I will be eating. Food in the morning is a change. Hookers breakfeast; coffee and a cigarette was always my motto and come to think of it. We didn't even eat the food he brought last night. I hear my name "grab the creamer on your way" I see three bags of take out one is in a pizza box the other two are filled to the top and stabled shut. I go out to porch and outlays eggs benedict, kiwi, strawberries and another parfait and my favorite mug. I add the creamer. "This is really sweet of you parker, I do not deserve this." He smiles, "You deserve catering and people at your feet and becking call...he smiles that intoxicating smile." Focus, I am not going to see Kalisto hours of having Parker in me. Atleast put a night between it. I begin to wat a strawberry and sip my coffee ans light up. "Ahh don't do that you'll ruin your appetite" I look at him, hunger is at the bottom of my feelings but I apperciate your gesture and I apperciate you." I feel a tear cloud my eye before the drip but my voice doesn't crack. I see his smile drop and his sadden eyes on mine. "I do not mean to sound like a cliché, but you will find a girl that will deny your charm and see through you and when you find her do not stop pursuing her because the girls that lay at your feet you use at your disposal and that one girl, she will deserve all of this and only if she is single and she will be jaded from a bad relationship or a rough childhood but you're every curropt girls dream, you made me feel feelings I thought I never had...ones I worked my life avoiding and you're still the only man to see me cry but its really you who deserves it all, and a girl who will see through that playboy will be worth it, I promise. When you find her, I will come to your wedding and have one dance with you and leave you to your happiness of life." He smiles with a tear dripped at his chin. "Do not expect to wait for you-" I lean in closer..."you will die a lonely man, now spend the day after work fucking those that desire your charm and try to stay away from my bestfriend, though you are what she needs, that is one case that is too hard and may bring you more down than up." I flick my cigarette "I love you Parker Robertson, and you're love and empathy saved me and you're truly a diamond in the rough but I must go and we both shall rip off the rearview mirror but keep it in our hearts" I put my legs straddled to him theough the holes of the armrest and kiss him as full heartedly and saddest I have ever kissed anyone. "Good bye my angel, I'll find you when you find her." I head inside and shower and get ready with door closed. Black dress, winged eyeliner and dark lipstick with some toe peek booties, bangles on both arms and my hair wavy. I get out the bathroom and all evidence of him is gone. I throw the sheets in the wash and comforter and replace them. Set the GPS to address he gave me and walk to my car. I light up a cigarette and await and left mourning behind and excitment replacing my black hole is returning as I am driving to this designated office. I check my mirror 10x, re-apply some highlighter on my cheeks. I want him to know what he has been missing, or confident enough to know what I have been missing. I can not wait to feel his rough hands around me and kiss his bottom lip gentlt, but I know that we will have to wait. Business first, its a test. It will only make it more enticing