You are the reason .. (boyxboy)

4. weekend

After that we went back in and enjoyed the party. I might have drank a bit to much, but so was everybody else. I had a feeling Lukas was avoiding me, but i caught him starring a few times. I saw him dancing with a girl and i didn't like what i saw. I wanted to go there and take her place. But instead i drank a bit more and ended up dancing with a cute girl myself. She was all over me, touching me and kissing my neck while we were slow dancing and i tried to fokus on her but my eyes kept looking at Lukas. And i definitely drank too much because i had a feeling he kept looking at me too.

We came home late. We basically carried Daniel home because he definitely drank too much. He threw up a few times at home, before we finally got him to bed.
"oh shit..the whole room smells like puck.. even the open window doesn't help..i think i'm moving my mattress to the hall, because i'm not sleeping here"
"you could stay in my room"
The second i said it i panicked. Please say no. I completely forgot about my nightmares and i didn't want him to witness it.
"yeah sure..can you help me with the mattress please?"

Lukas POV
Why did i say yes? what is going on with me? i followed him around the whole time at the party..i got crazy jealous when he danced with that girl.. and he caught me looking at him a few times.. and i'm sure i drank too much because i thought he was looking at me too. And now we moved the mattress to his room.. i'm so screwed.
" is it ok if i take a shower?"
He nodded.
"i'll take the guest bathroom but i would really appreciate if you would borrow me a shirt because it looks like i left my backpack at home"
He stood up, went to the dresser and brought me a t-shirt and a pair of boxers..I took everything avoiding his look because just the thought of wearing his underwear made my stomach jiggly and i know i blushed a little.
I stayed in the shower a bit longer then usually quietly hoping Aaron will sleep when i'm done. Boy was i wrong. He was sitting in his bed, his hair wet from the shower, wearing a WHITE t-shirt and glasses.. fuck he looked hot..nerdy but hot..
"what are you reading?"
"the new Harry Potter"
"WHAT? you have the new book?" i was so thrilled about the new book that i almost ran to his bed and before i realized i was sitting on his bed right next to him. I noticed he froze for a second before he giggled and looked at me "so you seriously like Harry Potter?"
"well yeah..i mean i do have all the books and the movies.. well i clearly don't have the last one"
"i can lend you mine when i'm done ..but i need it back..it was my mums last gift "
I noticed how his face expression changed and before i would overthink it i held his arm and stroke it until i felt he relaxed again.
"ok time for bed..thanks again for letting me crash in your room"
"night Lukas". I liked how he said my name. Damn i liked everything about him.
I fall asleep minutes later still a bit confused about what i just admitted to myself.
I woke up later when i heard Aaron mumbling something and crying. I knew straight away he was dreaming about his mum. I stood up and walked to his bed "Aaron?"
He turned around confused and avoiding my look "are you ok?". He still didn't say anything. He just nodded. "ok..so goodnight then" i turned around when i heard "can you stay with me please?"
Shit, shit, shit.. i knew i shouldn't, but i turned around and walked back to his bed. He moved and made space for me and without rethinking i layed next to him. I was completely stiff at first and scared like hell, but then i felt him moving to me and i just moved my arm so he could come closer. He smiled a little and cuddled to my hug. "you ok?"
"better now, thank you ". I had so many questions i wanted to ask but i felt how he relaxed so i just gently moved my hand up and down his back and we slowly drifted away.

Aarons POV
I woke up in the morning totally confused. Someone was hugging me hard. I slowly moved and saw Lukas. At the same time i remembered what happened at night. Great so now he knows i'm a complete sucker. Being in his arms felt amazing but i wanted him for completely different reasons and i knew he was next to me just because he felt sorry. It made me sad and i just wanted to get out of the room. When i finally released myself from his hug i heard he mumbled something and for a split second i thought he didn't like that i moved out of his hug.. but just for a split second. I almost ran out of the room I needed to clear my head. I went to the kitchen and started making pancakes. My mum loved cooking and she taught me a few things when she was still healthy.
"mmm something smells good "
I turned around and saw Daniel still pretty pale and stinky.
"Dan..you need a shower first.. you need a shower now! " He laughed but turned around and went back up.
I continued making pancakes when i felt someone else was standing close. I turned around and saw Lukas wearing a pair of my sweatpants..and he looked way better in them then me. I just hoped he won't ask about last night. I was embarrassed just thinking about it.
"morning"
"morning..are you ok?"
I saw he was really concerned "yeah i'm ok..amm..Lukas"
"yea?"
"thank you"
He just nodded and sat behind the counter and before i could do anything he took one pancake from the plate.
"hei..wait a minute.. can't you wait a few minutes and we will all eat?!"
"ohh god..these are soo good.. where did you learn to cook like this?"
"amm..my mum"
I knew he didn't know what to say and i had to lighten the mood "so chocolate or jam?"
"definitely chocolate "
"i was hoping you'll say that "
"why is that?"
"well because pancakes without chocolate are like world without love"
"that's a new one..i never heard it before "
"yeah because my mum said it"
"well your mum had to be an awesome person"
"she was..she really was"
I heard the chair moving and seconds later his hand was on my arm.
"what's going on here?" Daniel asked a bit to loud.
Lukas moved his hand away "i wanted to steal a pancake"
"breakfast ready..just sit down you two" i said to change the subject.
After breakfast we moved to the living room. Daniel turned on the tv and i went to get my book and glasses and read.

Lukas POV
I woke up alone. I knew i wasn't supposed to be disappointed but i kind of hoped to wake up with Aaron still in my arms. I was glad he fell asleep peacefully after i hugged him. Well i was scared of how good it felt to have him so close but he was so warm and he fitted to my hug perfectly..And how he smells.. i knew i'm in trouble and that i like him more that i should..I was nervous how he is gonna act when he sees me..but then i came to the kitchen. He looked good making pancakes. And when he mentioned his mum i just wanted to hug him and that really scared me. So for the rest of the day i was avoiding him. Danny and i watched some stupid tv shows and played video games..But all the time i kept my eye on Aaron. He looked so cute with his glasses on, all curled up on the couch reading. I knew he saw i avoided even looking at him and i kind of felt like he was sad because of it. Brian came to play games with us and we ordered pizza in the evening. When we ate Aaron cleaned the kitchen and went upstairs with the excuse that he is tired. I hoped it wasn't because of me ignoring him the whole day. And i didn't know how he will react when he sees i moved the mattress back to Dannys room.

Aarons POV
I felt my heart will explode. I woke up next to Lukas, I even felt he wanted to hug me in the kitchen and then he completely ignored me. I mean i saw his looking at me a few times but he always turned away before i could catch his look. And now this. I came to the room and his mattress wasn't there anymore. I felt like he just ripped my heart out. I went to Dannys room and left the book i finished reading on the pillow of his mattress and went straight to bed.

Lukas POV
After Aaron went up to his room i couldn't lose the feeling it was wrong to move the mattress. And i wanted to see him before we go to sleep. And Brian just didn't want to leave. Danny offered him to stay the night. He didn't know i moved the mattress back to his room because he told Brian he is staying in his room since i sleep in Aarons anyway. Shit. I ran up knocked on the door and heard Aaron telling me to come in. He was laying in his bed already so i quickly explained the plan and he said it's fine. I knew something was off..l heard it in his voice. I went to Dannys room to once again move the mattress and when i saw the book on my pillow i felt like the biggest idiot in the world. Aaron proved one more time he is the sweetest guy i know and even after i was ignoring him the whole day. I moved the mattress quickly, went to the bathroom, where on the shelf there were fresh clothes for me. Yep i'm an idiot.
After the shower i closed the door in the room and walked to the mattress. I felt his presence in my bones and i finally did the only thing that was right. I went to his bed and layed next to him. He was turned away from me and I felt how his whole body stiffened so i moved even closer and hugged him.
"why were you ignoring me today?"
Shit..i made a mess and i knew i have to fix it, I just didn't know what to say "i'm sorry "
He slowly turned around and looked at me. He wanted to say something but before he could i leaned closer and kissed him. I could see his eyes widen and he clearly wasn't expecting that so i panicked "i'm sor.." I couldn't finish because he moved closer and kissed me. And it wasn't like my kiss, when i just bumped into his lips and moved away. He was gentle and slow and he bit my lower lip, asking me to let him in. I opened my mouth and let his tongue in. Oh my gosh..i never felt anything like this before.There were butterflies in my stomach, amazing tingling feeling all over my body, my heart racing like crazy. I just didn't want it to stop. I moved him even closer so there was no free space between us. We were kissing for what seems like eternity and out lips parted only when we needed to catch breath. I knew it was to good to be true and i knew we will have to talk about it tomorrow, but for some reason i wanted to kiss his pain away, i wanted him to have a peaceful night and i knew what was the reason for that. I was falling for him.