You are the reason .. (boyxboy)

8. struggle

Lukas POV
Waking up next to Aaron is definitely a dream come true. I woke up before him and just watched him sleeping peacefully. He had no nightmares, he didn't cry. He didn't even move from my hug.
After a while i tried to move to take a shower but he didn't like it.
"don't you dare moving away" and curled even closer.
"i think it's time to wake up Aaron.. I promised your aunt we will be there for breakfast "
"not yet.. i waited to wake up next to you for to long.. i just need five more minutes "
I kissed him and carressed his cheek.
"Lukas"
"a?"
"i'm in love with you too"
I had to smile. I was so happy everything worked out between us. But i still didn't know what comes next.
"Lukas"
"what?"
"are you thinking about what next?"
"how did you know?"
"i felt it.. and i'm trying to figure that out too"
"will you be mad if i tell you i'm not ready to tell everyone yet? it's a huge step and i want to make it right "
"i'm also not ready to tell everyone.but.."
He blushed and looked away.
"but what Aaron?"
"well i don't want you too.. amm.. i don't want you to be seeing anyone else"
"Well i wasn't planning too. I like you and even though we won't go public yet i want us to be exclusive "
Aaron giggled.. Boy i loved to hear that.
"so are you my boyfriend then?" he asked quietly like he wasn't sure if it's ok to ask something like that.
"only if you are my boyfriend too"
"i'd really like that"
"good.. oh and Aaron..one more thing.. Danny knows everything "
As soon as i said that i stood up, jumped from the bed and run into the bathroom. I was expecting a loud opinion from Aaron and seconds later i heard "WHAT? WHAT DO YOU MEAN HE KNOWS?? LUKAAAAS!!"

After we finished breakfast we went to school. For some reason Aaron decided to wear my hoodie and i loved it. While we were driving to school Danny started talking "ok so seeing you two smile like two dorks means everything is ok?"
I looked at Aaron and he answered "we are fine.. but we don't want anyone to know yet "
"no problem guys.. i'm glad you gave Luk another chance and i promise if he hurts you i'm gonna destroy him"
I had to intervene "hei i'm here you know"
"oh i know, that's why i said it" he said smiling "but seriously guys i can be your cover when you need it and i'm really happy for you two"

Aarons POV:
I was glad Daniel knows because it's gonna be hard to pretend at school and i need someone i can talk to if it gets to hard. But it was even harder then i imagined. In classes we shared we still set together touching a bit more then necessary and i so wanted to kiss him right there. At lunch he set next to me and i couldn't eat. Daniel smiled at me  with encouraging look. And when we were about to leave for next class Lukas leaned closer and whispered "i soo wanna kiss you right now "
I smiled and almost fell over the chair still trying to calm my heart beating to fast.

Lukas POV
This was harder then i imagined. I was trying to focus but all i could think of was Aaron. All the touches and shared classes didn't help. I saw that he was also nervous and stiff. I asked him to come to Gryffindor later so we can continue with our project. I just wanted him near me soo bad.
He didn't even go home.. Danny said he will explain to his mum and left. I didn't even close the door when we entered that i felt Aaron hands around my waist.
"i missed you so much "
I giggled "Aaron we were together at school "
"yeah but i couldn't do this could i? he asked while kissing me all over my face. We went to my room and cuddled until my mum came. Then we worked for an hour before mum called us down for dinner. I loved having him there. He met my dad and they got along great. I kept thinking how they would react if i told them i'm gay. I knew sooner or later i will have do that. But i just didn't feel ready yet.
I walked Aaron home feeling sad because i wanted him to stay overnight.
"you ok?" he asked as if he knew something was off with me.
"mhm.. i just don't want to sleep alone"
"you can stay with us for the weekend? i'm sure Daniel won't mind"
"i hoped you would say that"
When we came to his house i quickly touched his cheek before leaving "i miss you already ". i got his smile in return and he went in.

Aarons POV
So this is how it feels being in love. I had a feeling even my aunt knows something is going on with me. She commented it's nice to see me happy. And i sure was happy. I tried to focus on school homework but got text from Lukas and that was it. Instead of homework we were texting for two more hours. He send me a pic of him lying alone in bed for good night and i looked at it till i finally fell asleep.

Daniels POV
When Aaron came home i couldn't miss his happy face. I was so glad they talked and everything was fine. I knew he needs some stability and love to finally be happy and i knew Lukas was perfect for him. I decided i will do anything in my power to back them up when they finally go public. I was hoping it's not gonna be a bumpy ride but boy was i wrong..