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Memories

Millie

"Wait. Let me get this straight. So, the Duffer Brothers have a new show and requested that I will be a lead character and in addition to that, stay in the same neighborhood as Finn, Caleb, Noah, Gaten, and Sadie?" I asked with the largest grin anyone has ever witnessed. "Bingo!" my mom exclaimed as I kept shuffling my feet because I couldn't keep still. My mom then added on, "They figured that if they asked you to work on a show that will be a bit abroad from London, you might as well just live near the studio, which is the neighborhood that the Stranger Things cast are currently living in right now. The Duffer Brothers already have a spare household in that neighborhood we can stay in. We're leaving in two days. Your dad's got everything handled. I will explain to him everything once we actually get out of this car."

We both chuckled, realizing that we were still in the car. The doors unlocked and I got out and ran to my mom on the other side to hug her again. I couldn't contain my happiness. The both of us entered our own rooms. I looked at myself in the mirror and I couldn't help but internally barf. I looked absolutely awful. It's been a pretty wretched night and I'm feeling terrible. A few minutes later, I could hear sounds of my mom and dad jumping up and down from the great news. That was quick. How did my mom explain everything so fast? Strange, but it could be stranger. It didn't matter because this means I can finally be with my best friends. My only  true friends.

I started to pack my luggage after I undressed that worn out sparkly blue dress off of me. It had so many red stains on it. It's most likely from the red punch. I wish I was ladylike sometimes. I wore some comfortable pajamas, since it's almost midnight. I placed my favorite clothes, my fruity, but elegant perfume, toiletries, journal, snacks, and other important things in my baggage. Starting to pick up my bag, I didn't realize that my luggage was halfway open until my journal fell out. I sighed because I was too lazy to crouch down and hold it, but I did it anyway. I haven't used this in a long time, I thought to myself. I mean, I've been in London for so long, I've barely used my journal because nothing interesting happens here. Also, I'm a huge workaholic. Maybe I'll read some entries I put inside of it. Sleep is for the weak. Right? I'm tired but I'm impatient to read what I wrote, so sleeping can wait. I skipped a few pages and landed on 1/3/16

(underlined and italicized means the words are written in the travel journal.)

1/3/16
I'm so excited today. I'm currently writing in a hotel because I got a main role to be in Stranger Things. My acting career took a couple of turns, but finally I know it won't go downhill anymore! I literally cannot wait to meet new people and travel nonstop. I've already went to the studio where the Duffer Brothers were going to film in.  I've met tons and tons of kind people there. Finn, Caleb, Noah, Gaten, Sadie, Charlie, Natalia, Winona,  Joe, and so much more people I want to mention who I've met so far, but I'm afraid I'll run out of space on this first page. They were super welcoming to me and I just loved them already. We didn't film yet but that's okay. I'm smiling very widely already, so no need for me to feel overwhelmed with my job. Especially considering the fact that I just landed here in Atlanta, Georgia. I'm just feeling glad that everything just seems so perfect in my life right now. I don't ever want this feeling to end.

Oh honey. Trust me. There are a million bumps on the road. I flipped a few more pages so I can read more of my cheesy writing. My handwriting looks incredibly terrible by the way. I cringed most of the time reading it, but looking back on how happy I was to see everyone gives me a burst of joy right now. I landed on 4/17/16.

4/17/16

Today was a day where I had to do something I've never done ever in my life before. Kissing. How are my parents okay with this? Shouldn't they be overprotective that their twelve year old daughter is kissing at such a young age? I know it's acting but you're still kissing in real life! I mean I know Mike and Eleven had some feelings for each other, but I didn't know Mike was going to kiss her. Love is weird honestly. I needed to do this. I signed up for the role of Eleven  and I'm not backing down just because of a little kiss. They started to film the scene and I tried not to look at Caleb, Gaten, and Noah, who were eyeballing the both of us because apparently the kiss had to be such a big deal to them. They literally had a bucket of popcorn out.  I cannot believe them.  Finn and I started the scene off with Mike asking Eleven if she's okay and the scene kept going from there. I was shaking my hands a little once I said, "A friend?" Because I knew in that exact moment that I would have my first kiss.  After he stated a few stuttering lines,  he kissed me and after the scene was over, I literally got out of seat to shout  out "Kissing sucks!"  For some reason, I think Finn was okay with it. But I definitely wasn't. Especially, if Caleb, Noah, and Gaten were teasingly staring at both of us and smirking like crazy. What a day.

I stopped reading and closed my diary shut, blushing and feeling my heart beating so fast. I remember that day clearly. I still hate kissing, trust me. But, I don't know what to feel about Finn anymore. I guess you could say I did have a slight crush on him back then ever since we had that kiss because it felt real to me at that moment, but I just yelled that kissing sucks so people wouldn't think that I liked the kiss even a bit. Or that I started liking Finn at that time.  I feel a pile of guilt thrown over me because of what I said. I didn't mean it. I didn't mean anything I said at all. I don't know how he acts like now, but hopefully I can become more close to him once I go to California. I really hope he didn't change.