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I Love You

Noah

As Gaten, Sadie, and I all headed home together, Millie was calling us after two dreadful years. I bet she called about Caleb. But how did she know about Caleb's situation? Did she actually read the all the texts from the Stranger Things group chat?

Sadie and I didn't want to answer for various reasons. All of us were crying and we wanted to seem okay. However, Gaten bravely decided it's best to accept her frantic calls because he felt bad. I hope she didn't hear us cry, but I have a feeling she did.

I yelled at Caleb because I just couldn't hide my feelings towards me. He hurt me. He hurt us. How could he just ditch us like that? He was asked to be one of them. I'm just so bummed out. Of course he can hang out with those people if he still continues to be friends with us. Does he even have time to?

 That's why we can only be together at lunch because he's so busy being a senior. But so far, I hate his friends with a burning passion. Look what they've done to us! All they did was break our friendship apart. Let's face it. It's shattered into pieces with ripped edges and crumpled creases. We're broken.

I went home and slammed the door to my room.  I didn't cry anymore because I couldn't. I drained out all my tears with Gaten and Sadie. Although, I wanted to so badly, I just yelled into my pillow, lying on a chair. After I had a slight and brief temper tantrum, I just went straight to bed without a word to anyone. I'm done dealing with people at this point.

Sadie

I'm so surprised that Noah actually spoke out to Caleb. I mean, of course Gaten, Noah, and I are all super furious but Noah is the least expectant person to yell at someone. He's just so positive, humble, and kind to everyone. That's a new side of him we hope to never see again. Honestly because it scares me. Who knew Noah could rage and spill out his emotions onto a person so overwhelmingly?

At least Finn will come in a few days to hopefully fix this terrible problem. I really do pray he can mend us all together so nobody else gets hurt. Noah is taking this situation so harshly. He had tears rolling down his face the most when I took a quick glimpse at him. It physically hurts me to see him so depressed.

Gaten is not taking it so well either. When we were crying at the table, he huddled us all together and he held onto Noah and I extremely tight. It was almost to the point where I can barely breathe. I guess he really doesn't want to lose one more loved one in his life. After all, Caleb and Gaten were close best friends. They were nearly inseparable. I have never seen a friendship quite like theirs. Both of them had some fights and arguments here and there but they were always fixed no matter what. Now, Gaten looks so empty. His eyes say a lot when I look at him. It's as if he lost all faith on everything.

I myself am suffering with them. Caleb was always such a goofball on set and even outside of the premises of Netflix headquarters. He has a wild personality at times but that's what makes him so special. Although he is stubborn at times, he never fails to help everyone with a smile of gratitude. Without a doubt, he is such an inspiring person.

Lately, however, you can tell he hasn't been showing that side to himself anymore. I feel like every day goes by and he just drifts away from not only us, but his past self. Sometimes, it's like he's gradually changing the way people view him, so he can seem more likable to people. But what if he never realized that he's perfect just the way he is, regardless of what others may think or say? 

Maybe that's the reason! Maybe he's scared of being judged by everyone. What if he's hesitant to show his true self to everyone because he's just straight up terrified? What if he was hanging out with those losers to change? Does he think it'll make him a better person? I should call him and the others. I should do a group call! Of course. Caleb is in the group chat. How could I forget? Caleb may have apologized after reading texts from our chat. He probably felt sympathetic. Guilty even. I know Noah and Gaten will be pissed if I call but not if I explain it.

I picked up my phone, once I arrived home and raced to my room. As quickly as I could, my shaky fingers finally clicked 'Call Stranger Things Kids Group Chat'. It took a while but Gaten was able to say, "Hello?" and I smiled with relief. I then yelped out, "I know this might sound crazy but let Caleb and Noah fix everything out. I'll explain everything."

After I ran out of breath explaining everything to Gaten, he shockingly said, "Are you sure that's the reason? Caleb doesn't seem like the type to be insecure about all that stuff." I then said, "What else Gaten? He just suddenly ditched us because we weren't good enough for him? He's never  left us no matter what the situation may be. Caleb wants to change because he doesn't want to admit that he may jeopardize his future if he stays the same." Little did Gaten and Sadie know, Caleb and Noah were in the call too. They heard everything. "I'm sorry." Noah spitted out.

Surprising Gaten and Sadie, they both yelled in shock. "When did Noah get here? And who's he saying sorry to?" Gaten practically shouted out for the entire universe to hear. Caleb and Noah laughed so hard. Caleb then said in a serious tone after recovering from his noisy giggle, "Noah. Gaten. Sadie. I didn't mean to upset you guys. Look, Sadie you're right. I'm changing for various reasons though. I'm afraid people won't like me anymore and I won't be famous when season three comes out for "Stranger Things." I'm unsure whether it'll be a successful series or not. My family is dealing with money struggles and most of their debts are paid because of my acting career. I just don't want to be a disappointment to them. So, I started hanging out with people from that popular show, "The OA." I thought that maybe if I post pictures of myself with them, I'll still be known. And that OA squad you guys were so upset about? I rejected it. You all mean more to me than anything in the world. I love you, and I'm so sorry guys for everything. I truly am." Gaten, Noah, and I accepted his apology and started to say, "I'm sorry too." at different time intervals.

"Hey Finn! I guess that plan isn't going to come in handy anytime soon." Everyone started screaming and Finn and Millie just laughed. "Finn? Millie? Oh my God." I basically yelled out on the very top of my lungs. Especially about Millie being in the call. Finn replied, "People, read the notifications to see who entered the call. It's 2019. We heard basically everything. Sappy, but cute." Despite the fact it was midnight for most of us, we all talked for hours until sunrise with wide smiles and never ending laughs.

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Thank you for 600+ reads! I appreciate it a lot. Extremely sorry for not updating in such a long time. School is hell right now. But, finally! Noah and Sadie's perspectives are so interesting to read on how they view others. I'm so happy about them all resolving the conflict together. The feels, man. The feels.