How unfair it was to get such a terrible deal,
Like the cards I was dealt just
felt so harsh,
Just felt so harsh my skin became parched and my lips went dry,
And your name just happened to be the title of the game but it's such a shame that I just,
Don't want to play..
How unlucky was I to get someone so perfect,
Whom I could never have.
For like the stars did we shine brighter then the sun and so high up in the sky,
I was yours and you were mine but instead I left myself behind afraid you'd see me cry,
but through a screen you can't see me scream and that is my greatest regret.
Not letting you know when my heart began to fret,
And now I'm here
bound to my poems as you are bound to another, there's is nothing I can do.
There was nothing left for me and certainly not for you,
Your remedy is with in your reach
While I'm still looking,
I'm sill looking for the breach so I can fill it again and pretend I didn't want to end
But then I'd be a lie.
I am a mess
This much is true,
And I know I've worried my friends and I know I've worried you but you are not mine and I am not fine but I am trying to learn to live with myself here in this present time and place,
Where I know,
I know I'll never feel safe
And I guess I could say it's because I don't have your embrace,
But there must be more to life then love,
For I am truly searching the heavens above for a reason to fight against the undertow that drags me down,
So low beneath the foam I can't feel the sun against my skin,
I can't feel the sun against my skin,
Is this what numbness is?
What a question,
I know well the answer
'Tis something I'm very much used too
but here,
Where I'm constantly reminded of you,
it gets harder to exist and I guess I've reached the point,
This is it.
This is my life.
A series of bad deals that beat me below the surface,
I know the ocean well and it's like an old friend but it's embrace is cold against my ever present soul and I'm not afraid,
There is no light here beneath deep blue waves, your face is not here, your hands are not mine and I'm low beneath the foam and I'm still so alone,
people panic before drowning they say it felt like a cage,
But I'm in no cage,
I'm drowning but I'm somehow okay,
I've lived my life in suffocating pain,
It's okay
It's okay...
This is my life
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S O U L P O E T
PoetryA collection of poems made in a dark time of my life. I made this book so that I could share my happiness and pain with others who might understand, but more importantly, this book is for those who need to be understood. Hope you all enjoy! Please...
