Helpless ( EDITING )

Chapter 27

I hate people. Listen to 'Can You Stay the Night' by Hayley Williams and Bring Me the Horizon(:

Ashton's POV

Wait what? That girl was Emma?! I racked my mind for what the girl had looked like and the first thing I thought of was her eyes. How could I forget those?

"Emma, I'm sorry for spilling your coffee. And I'm actually happy I met you that day." I said, not taking my eyes off the book cover. "I-it's fine. I need to go take a nap or something. You boys have song writing soon, you should get going." she said standing up, not taking her eyes off the floor. I grabbed her and pulled her into my arms. "Emma, what's wrong? It'll be okay baby, you're right we should go, I love you. Forever?" I asked pulling us apart. "And always." she said, a tear running down her cheek. I wiped it away before I kissed her lightly. "I love you Emma. Don't you ever forget that." I said

Michael eventually dragged me out of the bus. I didn't want to leave her, but I knew I had to. I eventually accepted the fact that we couldn't go back until after song writing and just put a smile on my face.

Emma's POV

Fucking hell. I stood up and Ashton pulled me into his arms. "Emma what's wrong? It'll be okay baby, you're right we should get going. I love you. Forever?" he said tilting my chin up so I was looking up at him. "And always." I whispered, a single tear falling down my face. Why am I crying?

The boys left and I started pacing. What's wrong with me? Why am I all of a sudden stressed out? What's happening to me? The voices came back, drifting into my mind.

Whore.

Slut.

Bitch.

Skank.

Fat.

Ugly.

Kill yourself.

Run to your pretty little razors.

"GET OUT OF MY HEAD!" I screamed grabbing a glass and throwing it across the room, landing with a shatter. Glass splayed across my feet and a shard shot out and cut my hand, the blood blossoming at my knuckles. I finally knew what had driven me crazy. I needed pain. Not a bad kind of pain, but the good kind. The kind that keeps me sane.

Emma, you're having an anxiety attack, calm down. Please calm down.

I grabbed the broke glass pieces and threw them away. I grabbed my phone and put my headphones I'm immediately. Music therapy. I laughed at the saying I used every them something was wrong. Music Therapy. It makes sense.

The song came on and it was exactly the song I needed to hear. 'Can You Stay the Night' this song just describes my life. It may seem confusing at first, but watch the music video, then you'll get it. I fell asleep to the music that's kept me strong for long.

I was awakened by the songs of a door slamming and loud voices. Why does my head hurt so badly? Why is my hand all bloody? What the hell did I do? I jumped down from my bunk and ran to the bathroom, rinsing my hand off. Everything came back slowly, the glass, the pacing, the panic attack, the music.

"ARE YOU GONNA STAY THE NIGHT? ARE YOU GONNA STAY THE NIGHT? HO OH OH OH ARE YOU GONNA STAY THE NIGHT?" I sang/screamed at the top of my lungs, opening the bathroom door and walking out. "Uh yeah, I think we are. We kinda have to live here for a while." Ashton's voice rang in my ears. He smiled at me, "Oh and I admire your music taste." be winked walking off to the bunks.

I couldn't believe how late it was when they got back, I also couldn't believe how tired I was. Seeing as how I had slept through the whole day. Side effect of depression, always being tired. I was about to climb into my bunk when a voice spoke. "Are you gonna stay the night?" the voice came from Ashton. "At Casa Del Irwin?" he asked wiggling his eyebrows. I laughed and grabbed my phone and jumped into his bunk.

"Goodnight beautiful, I love you more than anyone." he said kissing my head. "Love you too Ash." I yawned, putting my headphones in.

I know that we are upside down, so hold your tongue and hear me out.

I know that we, were meant to break, so what I don't mind.

Are you gonna stay the night?

Are you gonna stay the night?

Oh oh oh oh,

Are you gonna stay the night?

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Ugh. I'm just annoyed? Sad? I don't even know anymore but yeah. Idk. Thank you for almost 800 reads. Love you snowflakes.

~Emma 1-19-14 11:50 PM