Lost

Chapter 4

It was now lunch, and I was starving. After the game of dodgeball (which I won, of course) I had to go to English. It was boring, mostly, because I knew everything the stupid teacher was teaching me. I honestly got a better education in Juvie then I would have here.

"Beck, hurry up!" I rolled my eyes at Nathan. I mean he's supposed to be more adultish, but instead he acts like a child. It's sad really. 

"Shut up! I can go as fast as I please." He just huffed at me and continued walking.

When we walked into the cafeteria the first thing I noticed was how cliché the seating arrangement was. I mean the populars had tables in the middle of the cafeteria, the nerds by the trash cans. The geeks, stoners, and goths filling the tables on the outsides. Then the 'normal' people filling in between them. It was honestly stupid. There were a couple empty tables in the back that caught my eye. 

I put my emotionless face on and walked to the cafeteria line. I grabbed a burger and fries with a can of soda. I walked away without paying, knowing Nathan would do it for me.

To get to the tables in the back I had to pass all the other tables, and that included the table Ashlyn and Kaiden were sitting at. I rolled my eyes and started walking. I kept my face expressionless, and walked passed them. I thought I had made it safely until...

"Beck! Oh Beck!" I didn't stop, but I kept walking. Hoping they would get the hint. Sadly I was mistaken. Ashlyn chased me down. I could hear her footsteps chasing after my long strides.

I made it to the table and set my stuff down, I sat down in the chair so I was facing everyone else. Ashlyn sat down across from me. "Get the hell away from me, now." I said in a bitter tone.

"Beck, I was just wondering if you wanted to come sit with us. I mean we can make room for you, since your new and all." I rolled my eyes.

"I said no, now get the hell away from me! God! Are you deaf or just ignorant?" Her mouth dropped open and her eyes filled with tears. She got up and ran off, three girls got up and ran after her. 

I admit I felt kind of bad, but if that's what it took to keep everyone away from me, then so be it. I just want them all to leave me alone. I thought I made myself perfectly clear before.

Nathan sat down across from me and frowned at me. "Was that really necessary, Beck?" I rolled my eyes.

"I told her to leave me alone. She didn't listen, so I don't care if she deserved it or not. She didn't leave me alone, so I snapped. Now back off." His eyes got wide.

"Listen here, and listen well. I try to be nice, but if you keep acting this way with me I won't be, now knock it off. You want to be a witch to them, fine, but you watch that mouth with me. Got it?" I was definitely taken back, Nathan had never been like that with me. So reluctantly I noddod. 

I silently ate my food, with an emotionless face, like always. It was the safest thing. If my face was emotionless, nobody would know what I'm feeling. They wouldn't see the pain and sadness. They wouldn't see the absolute despair. So the safest thing to do was act like I was a robot.

After I was done with my food, I walked back threw the cafeteria and threw my food away and put my tray on the rack. Without waiting for Nathan I walked out of the cafeteria. I was beyond mad, I mean who does he think he is. He sounded like my freakin' father. He had no right!

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I had just gotten home from school. I finished my last three classes without participating and sitting in the back, ignoring everything and everyone. Calculus was new to me, so was AP History, but Spanish 4 was easy. 

I walked into the living room looking for Eve. There she was sitting on the couch watching Days of our Lives. I walked over to her and tapped her shoulders. 

"Eve, I was wondering if I could set up my punching bad on my balcony. I made sure that there was a place to bolt it, and it won't cause too much damage. Please?" She looked up at me and shrugged.

"Sure, I honestly don't care." I smiled and walked upstairs.

 I dragged the punching bag after me, Nathan  had drilled the holes for me and was now hooking the punching bag up onto the rack. Once he was done, he went home to his family. Nathan has two daughters and a son. He's married to a girl named Mary Kate. She's beautiful. (He showed me a picture) 

I went into my room and grabbed a sports bra and workout shorts.  I grabbed my tape and quickly tapped up my hands. I then walked outside to my punching bad and began to warm up.

Punch

Punch

Kick

Punch

Kick

Kick

Punch

Kick

Punch

Punch

"Beck!" I stopped and looked down to the driveway. Kaiden stood then smiling. I ignored him and went back to the punching bag. I didn't want to deal with him. I didn't walk to deal with anyone. I ignored all his other calls and continued to punch the bag.

I was mad. I was mad at Nathan for acting like my father. I just didn't need it nor want it. I made it this long without a father, I didn't need him to start acting like one now. I punched the bag arder and harder. I felt the skin on my knuckle begin to bleed, but I ignored it and continued to bug the bag.

I guess I was more mad at my mom and dad for disowning me. I needed them then, and what do they do, they disown me, act like I'm not there child and give up all of their legal rights and shipping me off to another family in a whole different state!!! I tried, I tried so hard. I know it's my fault, but I tried!

"Beck!" I turned my head towards my room. There was Kaiden standing in my doorway. I went back to my punching bag. Kaiden walked over and grabbed my shoulders. "Beck! Stop! You're bleeding!" I shoved his hands off.

"I know! Now back off! I don't need nor desire you here, so leave, now." I walked into my room and opened the door, waiting for him to leave. He scoffed and walked out the door. 

"This is ridiculous! I try being nice and I get treated like scum. So, this probably explains what happened with Ashlyn. She tried to be nice, and you bit her. Wow, great job. You should be proud of yourself." I rolled my eyes and with that I slammed the door shut in his face.

I walked over to my bed and layed down and started to cry.

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