Hi guys, please don't kill me. I know I haven't updated in like forever, so here's something..
I was happy today
But right now I feel
That I shouldn't be allowed,
Allowed to feel happy.
When there are people around me;
Who are sad, depressed, damaged,
Yet here I am, feeling happy,
Even though I know their pain.
I feel guilty, guilty for being happy,
Guilty for meaning my smile, my laugh;
When others around are fighting,
Fighting themselves and god knows who else.
I feel guilty for being happy,
When I may be the reason,
Reason of sadness for someone else,
'Cause I wasn't what they thought.
I feel guilty for being happy,
While others are suffering;
People are trying, so hard,
But are not succeeding.
I feel guilt inside me,
as I help others in their pain;
Yet I stay happy myself
And now I'm happy for being guilty.
Because I feel selfish
For being happy, while others aren't
I'm sharing it, I'm trying
Yet today's my last happy day for a while.
sorry for the late update..
kj
