Warning : this one is loooong.
I lie, lie to protect myself
From those who might hurt me
If they knew the truth
About how I'm not what I appear to be
I lie, lie to others
to keep them interested
Fearing they may leave
If I ever get busted
I lie, lie to myself
Telling myself it'll be alright
I dread both my past and future
And forget about the passing hour
I lie, lie to myself
to protect myself, from me?
I don't know anymore
I feel I don't deserve to be
Now I've woven this web of life
It's all tangled up and messy
I can't free myself
As I sink deeper and pray for mercy
I can't do this anymore
Can't decipher my lies from truth
It's killing me from the inside
And making me empty and hollow
I doubt memories I remember so clearly
are they all lies too?
I've started to believe those lies
that I told you
I can't stand it anymore
Can someone tell me what to do?
I can't decipher the despaired from the devil
I'm drowning, drowning in the lies I told you
Now that I've come to realise
that lying was my true mistake
I don't understand why
I started lying in the first place
I am happy with who I am
or whoever I think I may be
Maybe those lies weren't for you
but for me
Have I started to become what I want to be
Have I forgotten myself altogether
Maybe I comfort myself , by trying to be
Someone who I long to be forever
And in those efforts, I've lost myself
Maybe thats why I feel empty
For I lost what I am, and can't be what I want to
Now asking myself, what is me?
