What About Us

Chapter 9

I am so sad right now. Today is Carter's last day with me before he leaves for vacation with his mom .

I wake up feeling sick and run to the bathroom and vomit in the toilet making a big commotion knocking over a table on my way after five minutes of being sick I pass out on the bathroom floor the coolness of the floor feels great on my hot body
"Ray. Ray honey you need to get off the floor" I hear Carter now in the bathroom with me
"I can't !" I wine "if I get up I'll be sick again"
He lets out a long sigh and leaves the room and returns moments later with a blanket he covers me up and sits next to me and runs his fingers through my hair talking sweet words to me as I drift back to sleep I wake up an hour later my head is Carter's lap I set up and get sick again he wakes up and holds my hair away from my face
He carry me to me to my bed
Just as I'm about to go to sleep I hear him mumble about what is he going to do with me
I wanted so much to tell Carter good bye but he had to leave right after he put me back in bed this made me up set
So at like one I. The afternoon I finally got out of bed to start my day I set up in my bed and look around my room and let out a long breath all of the happy energy seemed to have left with Carter I see Carter's Letterman's jacket  setting over my chair at my desk I get out of bed my whole body is sore as I walk over to my desk I look at the jacket like is is alien after a few minutes of staring at the jacket I put it on and walk to the living room and turn on some TV I smell Carter's sent on the jacket I love the way he smells. Like outside and love and spice all .mixed in to one sexy sent I put my hands in the pockets I feel something in the right pocket and pull it out on the front in Carter's hand writing is my name

Ray

I am sorry you couldn't say good bye to me so I left a piece of me with you I'll see you in two months I wish I could text you or something but the cruise ship doesn't have service and i t a would take forever to mail you I am going to miss you

Love always
Carter

I wrap my arms around my chest and let  a few tears slide down my face I have no idea what I am going to die without Carter I get up from the couch and walk to t the back yard I walk right up to the small pool and take off the jacket and set it on the grass near the patio and fall backwards in the pool I let the water soak me as I sink five and a half feet to the bottom of the pool the cool water feels so nice and I close my eyes letting the water swallow me before long my lungs start to burn I reach toe surface and float on my back and I stay there till dark around nine at night my aunt gets home from work and sees me in the pool she walks over to the pool
"Ray get out of the  pool before you get sick " she says
" I'm already sick aunt may leave me alone please "
"No. Out. now " I get out of the pool and all of the tiredness a s all at once and the world around me starts to spin and the ground comes up to meet me and I am laying on the ground I can here my aunt calling my name but is sounds like she is under water and my body let's me fall asleep

I wake up in a small white room and a small beeping keeps me awake so I reach up and snatch the cord out of the wall I am now awake when I realize that I am in the hospital a nurse walks in
"Well good morning" she plugs the cord back in
"OK so the doctor wants to some more blood work just to make sure you guys are doing well" she says walking over to me to check my blood pressure
"Wait. You said you guys it's just me ."
"You and your twins. Silly" she playfully taps my arm
"Well I'm sorry but I am not pregnant you must have a chart messed up or something"
She walks over to where the chart is "Ray is your first name correct  and Curtis is s your last name"
My mouth goes dry this can't be possible Carter and I have only had sex once
"I would like to see for my self " I whisper she walks out and returns with an ultrasound  machine and a doctor
"Well miss Ray please lift your shirt " he plugs the machine in the wall "this jell is a little cold he squirts some jell on my stomach and takes the wand and places it on my lower stomach and a picture appear s on the little window
" see these little dark spots here and here" he points at the little dots "you are only four weeks but because they are twins they show up earlier than only one baby ..."
He continued to talk but I wasn't listening
What are people going to think about me being sixteen and pregnant ..... My aunt
I look at the doctor
"Does my aunt know " I gasp
"No but I was about to give her the call and tell her"
"Don't tell her I want to just tell I am awake and I want talk this her
The doctor and nurse walk out and I place my hands on my stomach
I am pregnant
I am pregnant
I am pregnant
I keep repeating over and over in my head hot tears start to stream for down my face. I am not ready to be a mom and what about Carter he won't even know for two months
My mind I s racing when my aunt walks in she kisses my head
" how are you doing honey "
"To be honest shitty "
"Language" she taps my head
"Aunt may sit down please "
She does
"  Ray what is it "
"I'm pregnant" I whisper.