My FaceTime call was finally answered.
"Hey Bren! What's up?"
I heard a sigh and silence. It made me upset to see him so lonely... "How are you holding up?" I smiled to try and cheer him up. Brendon shook his head, "I don't want to talk about her, okay?" Watching him was like reading a book that you really love except it had a bad ending, it's disappointing. And bittersweet. On one hand you love the series and the contents within the books, but the ending ruins it all. Or maybe watching him was like getting excited for a band's next tour only for them to break up. (You know who I'm talking about.) You have all the albums you can listen to, but there will never be anything fresh.
"It's a nice day today, isn't it? Have you gone outside?" I tried to make casual conversation. I'm really bad at talking and usually just make things more awkward. "Gah, what am I saying? You look really nice, you always do, Bren. Call me if you ever need anything, okay? If you just want to reflect or rant or just want to hear someone else's voice, I'm here. I know silence can be a barrier but you can't be silent forever."
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It was 3:44 AM and my phone was ringing. Ughhhh. I grouchily picked it up and answered if. "Hello?" I sounded like I just woke up because I did, that kind of voice well you're still figuring out who you are and where you are but are able to function.
"Hey (Y/N)! I wanted to hear your voice. Nothing's wrong but your voice is so calming sometimes. Did I wake you?"
"Yeah, its fine Bren." I sat up and bed and stretched, rubbing my eyes, too. They were watery as hell after I yawned and I was half asleep but I stayed up for Brendon.
"Your dog misses you." I could hear Brendon smiling (I can just feel it) and patting the couch.
"I bet, but she's with you, so she's in good hands."
"Yeah.. (Y/N).. I'm sorry."
"Hmm?" I took a sip of my water from my bedside table.
"I'm sorry for being an asshole, you know I love the art, maybe I deserve to be the star..blah blah that stuff. And I'm sorry for excusing you like you're trash, you're not. I shouldn't have jumped around, I can't imagine how that must've felt. I've been a jerk the past month and life has just been a mess. I know it's not gonna repay for anything I did but I'm trying here. I didn't want to half-ass text you this I wanted you to hear it so you know I'm sincere."
"Thanks, Bren." I didn't know what to say, it's not everyday you get something like that said to you so I was just kinda, ya know, struck with surprise..? "I'm over it, and you. You can move on if you want. I don't care anymore. My feelings haven't changed for you but I'm not gonna be possessive. You have my blessing even though you shouldn't need it."
"(Y/N)?"
"Sorry, they're not here." I joked, poorly.
"Come on, (Y/N).."
"Yes Bren?"
"I... thanks."
"No problem... I'm going to bed now, see you around." I said with death in my eyes because I was woken up, but you know, friend problems.
"Yeah, bed. Sleep is important. See ya."
I squinted my eyes and hit the hang up button. I slammed my head back into the pillow and drifted off once again.
