Between the 2!!

Carmen is Crazy

I woke up to rapid knocking coming from my bedroom door, my mother screaming for me to wake up and unlock the door. I looked over at Terrence sound asleep, he must have been really messed up lastnight for him to sleep through her banging on the door.

"T wake up, you have to leave before I open the door and let my ma in" I shook him repeatedly and he didnt even budge. What was I going to do, if she saw him in here she would definelty kick me out. I got up from the bed and walked to the door to speak to her through the thin wood.

"Ma what do you want? It's the weekend and I dont have school today, why you buggin so early?"

I know I had an attitude and I was glad I didn't sound scared of her. "Girl don't you take that tone of voice with me, and lets not forget it's MY HOUSE. You dont get to lock doors in my house or catch an attitude. With that being said it's 11:30 so get ya ass up and do something around this house. And we will definitely be talking about what you THINK you heard between me and James last night"

I hear her walk away and I finally feel like I can breathe. I had totally forgot about her fuckin James last night, I dont know how Im going to tell T or if I should he might freak out and do something bad. I lean my head against the door trying to figure everything out.

"What is she talking about Felicia? What did she mean her and James, what's goin on, what dont I know?"

I turn around to see Terrence sitting up in the bed looking at me waiting for me to speak. I knew I had to tell him now, I couldnt lie to him. He means more to me than anything and he will never forgive me if I dont tell him. I walk over to the bed an I sit down next to him and do my best to explain to him what I walked in on last night and what James said to me. After I explained everything to him he just sits there and doesn't say anything. I start to cry because I dont know what to think or do anymore. Im tired of living like this, I just want to be happy once in my life.

"Lisha dont cry,  Im gonna get this all figured out okay? Please trust me, I got this." He wraps his arms around me and lets me cry my eyes out till there is nothing left.

"What are you gonna do T? James is ruthless and I'm scared"

"Im not gonna do nothing that will land me  in jail and away from you, but he wont get away with this. Just promise me you wont tell your mom or James that you told me? Promise me Lish.." He grabs my face and makes me look him in the eyes. His hands on my face send tingles all over my body and in between my legs. I dont know how to respond other than shaking my head yes. 

"I want you to say it Lish, promise me"

"I promise T"

" Good, now I have to leave but I will be back to pick you up okay just dont say anything"  He gets up to leave, but I have to ask him about last night. "Um T? What happened to you last night?" He turns around and looks at me like he doesnt know what Im talking about.

"What you mean?" He comes an sits next to me again with a worried expression on his face. I cant bring myself to tell him what happened. That he kissed me and told me he's always wanted to.

"You came in here at 3 in the morning drunk, did you forget?"

"Ah Lish Im sorry, I had a really bad day. Did I say something hurtful to you or something? What happened?"

Oh boy I knew this was going to happen, he doesn't remember. My heart starts to hurt, I really thought for a min he wanted more. "Nothing happened, I was just wondering what made you get drunk. It's coo though, we will talk about this later."

"Aight woman, Ill text you later. OH which reminds me, he's your iPod. Dont worry Lish it's all gonna be ok"

He kisses my forehead and walks to the door and opens it slightly to make sure momma is gone. He turns and knods at me and walks out the door. My mind is racing right now, with all thats happened. I want to tell Terrence that i think I found his grandmother that he doesnt know he has, and now I have to deal with James and Momma too..

I curl up in my bed and think about lastnight and how he kissed me, that's the only thing that really made me happy. I know I know, He's my cousin and that it could never work out. I don't think that he really feels that way about me anyways, I mean how could he? He could have any girl he wants and he sees me as  a little sister that he has to take care of. I just close my eyes as the tears start to flow. Im just so confused.

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Carmen's POV

That lil bitch daughter of mines is going to ruin everything Ive got planned. She never listens to me and she talks back as if she's grown. She aint grown until she moves out from under me, so that I can finally live my life. I've done everything for her that a mother is supposed to do, and how does she repay me? By smart mouthing me and treating me like shit whenever she wants. Well she's got another thing coming if she thinks she's going to get in between what I got going on with James. 

She just had to come home early last night, it's like she planned on ruining my night. Although had James been on time we might have been done fuckin before she got home. Margaret of coarse needed some things from the store that he had to pick up. I dont see why the bitch cant drive herself to the damn store. Ive asked him countless times when is he finally going to get rid of her ass so that we can be together. Im tired of her and her low life of a son. 

Ive got to make my daughter hate living here even more than she does now, so that she will move out with that boy. That way James and I can be together free and clear, no interference. I have a plan to get rid of them all, I just need some outside help to make it go faster. Im tired of waiting for my happiness.. Its time to get the ball rolling.