Female Characters x Reader

Seishiro Tsugumi (Nisekoi)

A/n: So I recently got my first genuine and not forced crush. So I vented all my feelings and thoughts into this fanfic cause it's been hard for me (because were both girls and she's straight).

Also sorry this is a day late.

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It might sound stereotypical, but when you're in love everything that you read about in romance novels or movies actually happen. Everything your friends with love lives say, is true.

Whenever you see that certain someone your heart rate rises. You act differently to impress and try your best to get their attention. Whenever you think about them your heart aches and you feel like you're going to choke. You feel like every moment without them is wasted. In fact you even do stupid things just to see them, even if it's for just a couple moments.

You might not even be that close to them, or be able to explain why you like them. You just do, it's hard to explain; your mind just told you that you loved them and only them.

You might not want to tell your friends out of fear that they won't accept it or confess to them for you. You'll also think about them at least once an hour, they're everything you want; you literally revolve around them.

It hurts you to think they might be swept off their feet by someone else. You fear that they'll like someone besides you, or that your time together is limited. Not only that but you're conscious of everything, you're afraid that even the most simple of actions is being done wrong.

That's how I feel about Seishiro, and she knows it; it's quite obvious. I loved her despite knowing that she likes Raku. I was just going to make her fall in love with me and not him. But this isn't a romance novel, people don't just do that.

If someone hates you they'll hate you for a good period of time. If someone loved you they'll be torn by every little thing they do, even if it's as minor as their anticipation for a hello from you.

It excites you when you think of the possibility of actually dating them. You could just remain friends, but things don't operate that way. That's why it's called love, because you want to do more than just what friends do. You want to be special to them, and only you; you are greedy and only towards them. Anything else is irrelevant. But to you approaching them is like trying to see the invisible or hear the inaudible.

I'm other words, love sucks. Every single moment could feel great or horrible. But yet it'll be one of the greatest times in your life.

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I nuzzled my head into my arms daydreaming about Seishiro. I was okay with just liking her from a distance and being friends, it was mainly the thought of her liking or dating someone else that deeply effected me.

It'd hurt even more when we hung out. She'd invite him to everything we did together, ice skating, movies, etc. And with him around I'd feel bad about liking her. It was excruciating.

I guess it was mainly my fault for genuinely falling in love with her. I knew I had almost no chance with her and yet I still fell for her. The moment she started to hang out with Raku was my downfall. She might've acted like we were a couple but we never were. In fact it wasn't just me she acted like that with, I just happen to shove my way into her life and be the one closest to her.

Not I only that but I pretended to like Chitoge when I didn't. And I didn't want to hurt her either, if I hurt Chitoge's feelings I'd hurt Seishiro's too.

I lifted my head and saw Seishiro signalling me to come over. She often did this when she was around Raku to avoid awkward moments. I gladly came over to help prevent any further progression in their relationship.

"Hey." Raku greeted, stuffing his face with noodles.

"Hi." I replied, sitting in between Seishiro and Chitoge. Seishiro also knew her place, she knew she couldn't get to close to Raku because of Chitoge.

We were both in a position to suffer.

Seishiro threw her arm around my neck and laughed at the jokes we told to each other. I laughed along, putting my arm around her as well. To be honest I hated myself for basically flirting everyone. My constant care for my friends made my treatment for Seishiro seem like something I'd do for everyone. But I just didn't want any of them to feel sad.

We were called back to our seats as the bell rang and the teacher came back with a stack of papers. I laid my head back onto my desk as the part of the day that I anticipated the most faded away. I was left to feel empty again and rekindle lust for Seishiro's presence and care.

I sighed, and just fantasized once again.

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A/n: Yea, so sorry for the lack of fluff.