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15.

(Zadie and Julia in the MM)

Zadie

"Zahra get up." Julia spat opening the curtains in my bedroom. I grunted and rolled over in my bed. "You've been like this since Chris's party. Not to mention that was three weeks ago. May I ask why?"

I never got out of bed unless I needed to. To eat, work, shower, and afterwards I'll roll right back in bed. Only because there is nothing else for me to do now that me and Chris are done. He has texts and called me a couple of times but I simply ignore them. He keep acting as if nothing happened, asking if I wanted to go out or come over. How the hell could he break my heart like that then want to be friends. I simply don't want to be friends with him. I want him, not in a friendly way either. I miss him but I am the one to blame for this. He left me for being too secretive and that's on me. I haven't told a soul about me and Chris but I'm shocked it's not obvious. I mean Chris is on Instagram partying and taking pictures with these half naked girls. I should be happy he hasn't deleted the post he reposted of me and him at the private party. Well he hasn't yet, atleast.

"Chris broke up with me," I blurted out. It was time I shared it with someone. Julia eyes widen as she sat on the edge of my bed.

"He found out?" She exclaimed. I shook my head and sat up, my back resting on my headboard.

"No. He broke up with me that night at his party. He said I was being too secretive with him and that he didn't know a thing about me." I whined feeling the lump in my throat threatening to form.

"Oh my. I'm so sorry I didn't notice, Zadie." She assured, I shrugged.

"I didn't want anyone to notice. I didn't want people to see how hurt I was. Because it is my fault." I sighed. I glanced up at Julia as she bit the corner of her lip almost as if she was hiding something. "What is it?"

"I think I'm going to tell Dee that I'm nineteen."

My eyes widen. "What? No! Hell no!" I exclaimed.

"I've been thinking about it since the party. It's been eating me up too and I can't keep this secret from him any longer."

"Julia will you stop and think for a damn minute! If you tell Deecosey your only nineteen he will tell Chris and Chris will question me." I snarled. She shook her head.

"But Zadie he deserve to know the truth. Besides atleast it's an legal age, and if he doesn't want to be with me still then it wasn't meant to be." She shrugged. My face heated up as I jumped out of the bed.

"WHY ARE YOU ONLY THINKING OF YOURSELF! WHAT ABOUT ME?" Julia rolled her eyes.

"Zahra you and Chris aren't together right now so maybe it's a sign. Besides Chris may love you enough to accept you and wait for you." She shrugged, I scoffed.

"WAIT FOR ME? SERIOUSLY, JULIANA!" I exclaimed calling her by her real name which she hated, but I wanted her to know how upset I was. "Chris won't want me let alone will Dee want you! You got to be smarter than this, Julia!"

"Whatever. I wasn't asking for you opinion. Nor was I asking for your permission. I'm going to tell him. And last time I checked, I am older than you and you are living with me. So you can shut the hell up." She growled storming out of my room.

I sat back down on my bed, in disbelief. If Julia does go and tell him, my life is over. She's so stupid if she really believes Deecosey, who is 26, is really going to stay with a 19 year old. Atleast I know my chances of being with Chris after he finds out is a slim chance to none. As much as I wanted to slap her right now I couldn't. We had to go furniture shopping with her mom. Her mom just moved houses and she wanted help on picking out all white furniture as her new style. Getting out of the bed, we got dressed in silence. Maybe she was pissed at me but I don't care, what she is trying to do is stupid. Not only would she make herself look dumb in the process but me as well. We even drove to Ikea in silence until finally we came face to face with Titi.