Lie.

18.

                                     Zadie

   "She should be waking up any moment now." My eyes fluttered open seeing a tall, brown skin male doctor who seemed to be no older than thirty-one and my family.

        "Hey, boo." My mom smiled rubbing my hand. I looked down at my now patched arm and up at my family.

     "How bad is it?" I asked.

                "I'll go grab her meds." The doctor announced, leaving the room.

    "Third degree. But no we can't see your bones." My dad mentioned, chuckling. A wave of relief came over me. I look over at Julia  who sat in the furthest chair nibbling on her lip.

          "Where's Chris?" I asked.

   "Oh he left, yesterday. Julia says he left because of the press." My dad mentioned. I've been out for a whole day?

        "I must say, I'm surprised your friends with you idol and didn't scream it to the world." My mom snickers. I nodded but kept my glare at Julia. She knew something and was too afraid to say. I looked over at Titi who gave me a look of empathy.

    "Um, I think Julia and Zadie need a few minutes alone." Titi spoke up. My parents nodded and left out along with Julia's mom.

        "What's up? What's wrong with you?" I asked Julia.

    "What happened that night? You didn't tell Chris did you?"  My eyes instantly went down to my lap. Of course I didn't tell him, I don't want to lose what possibly could be the love of my life.

         "I did." I mumbled. She scoffed.

   "No you didn't. Because when we got here it slipped up that you were seventeen and Chris, who had no idea, is pissed!" She exclaimed. My heart dropped.

              "H-he knows?" I gulped.

      "Yes. He left the minute he found out." She murmured. Oh god it felt as if the whole room was spinning. All I could think about was all the things Chris have said to me. He can't be mad, can he? I mean if he truly loves me he'll atleast talk things out with me. With the feeling of regret drowning me from the inside out, I panicked.

           "Where's my phone? I need to call him!" I exclaimed trying to rip my IV's out.

      "Zadie maybe you should give him some space." Julia mentioned.

    "NO! I was supposed to tell him! I was going to tell him I just didn't want him to hate me." I began to sob.

        "Zadie don't cry. Look, after the doctor give you your meds their probably going to release you. Then I'll take you over his house if that's what you really want." I sniffles and nodded.

   Just as she promised, the doctor gave me my meds and told me I was free to go. My car was still at Chris house anyway so I eventually had to go back even if I didn't want to. Although my parents wanted to watch over me like hawks, once they fell asleep over our house, me and Julia left. The entire ride there I thought of how Chris has been looking at me, and how much that is going to change when I see him now. I pray that he doesn't believe everything was a lie because it wasn't.

      "Do you want me to go in with you?" Julia ask as she pulled infront of his house, this entire feeling felt like Deja Vu. I was supposed to been have told him, yet I can't pick out why I haven't. I just wanted to be with him. I just wanted him and I couldn't bare the thought of losing him. I shook my head and stepped out. Her being here witnessing everything would have done me no justice. Besides this is particularly her fault. Nobody had a reason to bring up my age, so why did they? She's been wanting me to tell him since his birthday, how do I know this wasn't a plan of hers?