Flaws

Life at home

My brothers knew about this abusive relationship. They knew they couldn't save me from it, because I wouldn't listen. 

My brother also, made me develop insecurities about my body, and appearance. My mom is always gone working, so it's not like she would defend me from them.

My older brother and I have this complex, love/hate relationship. A few occasions, he'll be there for me when I need the help or the support, other times, he tells me it's my fault for doing the things I do. 

I was always there for him when he needed it. Yeah there's times where I would be a total bitch, but if he seemed sincere, I drop the attitude and be an actual sister for him.

My little brother, listen to me problems, of course he wouldn't understand since he's in the elementary school. But I think it'll help him out to be a good boyfriend one day.

I used to been fairly skinny back in the 6th grade and at family gatherings they all argue, and forced me to eat. Since then I gained weight, 7th to 8th from 110lbs to 136lbs.

I'm pretty short about 4'9, so I looked pretty tubby.

I want to lose this weight, at times I wouldn't eat. It's not like it helped, but that's what I did.

I desired the bodies I see on social media, tumblr to be exact. Seems like guys loves thin girls, or girls with sexual features as in big breast, huge asses, but at the same time a thing waist and a flat stomach. The hourglass figure, or a straight super model look.

I know these photos are photoshopped, but you can't help but thank 'I want to look like this' .

A girl can only dream.