Flaws

Cascade

Another week went by, Ohh how I thought to myself, Alesana this is too good be true. A boy as cute as he was, out of my league I always told him.

Declines the thought of it, I told him he could be with someone 10 times prettier than me.

Declines the thought of it, he told me I was perfect for him.

The upcoming Saturday I went with him as he got a haircut, then held hands as he drove.

This was October, Halloween was around the corner. A mutual friend of his and my brother was planning a party. I went with Jonny to the party and as we planned it, we went back to Jonny's place since he wanted to get ready. 

As he got ready told me how he always dressed to impress, and now he didn't need too since he found me. Soon things just escalated to intense kissing, and fondling. Night came, and we left to the party.

I'm not a social butterfly, I stay quiet holding Jonny's hand to the entire time. My older brother was there, obviously he wasn't pleased with me there. The backyard of this party slowly filled up.  Drinks were passed out, I was offered a drink.

I didn't know it was alcoholic nor tasted it, it was fruity and I drank the entire cup. After I finished the drink Jonny look at me shocked. "What?", I asked. "You drank a cup of vodak and strawberry soda", he said. From 0 to 40 seconds, I couldn't see straight. I honestly don't remember a thing afterwards. What I do remember is, being dragged into a car, my brother telling Jonny that he couldn't come, Jonny saying my name and fell to the ground. 

My mom was very upset about the whole party thing, as soon as I woke up I asked Jonny to fill in the blanks for me. So much for my first party, apparently I was every type of drunk that night to emotional to fighting.
My mom wanted to talk to me, all that she was upset about was the fact that I came home at 1am, not that I was drunk or was with a guy who two years older than me, but coming home late. So a curfew was set for me, also that she didn't like that I was hanging around a guy like Jonny. My brother began telling me not to be with either, and his friends too. It annoyed me.

I told Jonny all about the situation, and he asked me if what they thought is what I thought. I told him, "I'm the type of person that goes with my impression first, and I don't think you're a bad guy. I like you.", things were fine for the next few days, I know I'm a very clingy person, I get too attached. I often spammed him with messages after messages, I don't know what it was ,but he'll send a text and an hour or two later responses back to me.

He got annoyed ignored me, waited days. I was upset, on occasion I message my brother's best friend, Gustavo. I knew him for a couple years, and time to time he was always over at my place. As I annoyed him, he always knows what's up with me, told me what my brother told me about Jonny.  He told me to go to him if I ever want to talk about my problems.More depth into our conversation, we we're being stupid and I screen-shot our convo.

Gustavo didn't mind it at all, 5 minutes pass and I saw the Jonny screen shot the convo. He was upset. He didn't to talk to me, thought I was different, but I was the same. 

Then he stopped talking to me, and blocked me on whatever social media site we had.

I messed up, I was depressed, I honestly tried, I gave in and apologized so many times ,but he wouldn't talk to me at all. I gave up, and the day goes by. 

Out of the blue I got a facebook message from Ethan, the dream boy that got away.

He asked me if I was enrolled to the community college, and I told I was, he told how he believed he saw me ,but wasn't sure.

We texted to one day we should meet up to catch up. Then we did, the following Saturday.

He came to my house, in my room, told him everything from highschool to present day, and people from middleschool to now are different, how much has changed.

I kept teasing and confessed that I liked him, I was a really bad flirt, so now I just tell them in hopes they feel the same way.

We remained in my room, listening to music, and soon he kissed me after I tease him about one of his ex's in middleschool. 

The boy I crushed on kissed me in my room....that was all I thought about.