Flaws

Desperate maybe.

I was never the type to drink or smoke. I was a good girl, goodie two-shoes. However, the relationship was near its five year mark. Of course, it hurt me.

"Hey, can you buy me a Mike's hard lemonade?", I asked my older brother.

"Ugh, Alesana are you okay?", he sounded worried.

My brothers knew James for the longest amount of time, so this was big news to break.

"Me and James broke up.", I tried not to sound like I was about to cry.

Silence grew over the room, and my brother came towards me to comfort me.

Moments like this not come very often, he told me everything will be okay, but he also agreed to buy me a drink.

My mom wasn't so concern about it, she didn't believe me. When she saw my brother hand me alcohol that's when she was concern, that this wasn't a joke.

I went to my room and poured out my emotions as much as I could, while drunk l laying down on my carpet floor in the dark.

James and I agreed to leave it on good terms, so the next day came it was awkward seeing him. I don't want to put the exact details, but he attempted to 'win' me back, I told him no, we sat together crying, he wouldn't let me go, I know he doesn't want to, but it's what's best.

That night I reminisced that moment, I felt lonely, sad, empty even. I did what I thought was a good idea, and got back with him. He was thrilled, but after I did that I felt the weigh grow heavier on me. The next day, My brothers and I decided to spend time together. Went out shopping, and headed to one of my older brother's friends. I knew most of his friends, but one of them I've never met before.

His name was Jonny, I noticed that he'll stare at me alot, I blew it off, I was mentally debating to call off with James or not I was just unsure.

 Jonny stood by me everytime I stood up somewhere, tried to start a conversation. He was showing my little brother a boxing move, I honestly don't know why I mentioned it up, but I told him " I did boxing for a month.", just out of the blue. He looked at me and smiled, "Really?", he said. "I done boxing for a few years now, I love it,it's cool.", he added.

Later that day we decided to go to the movies. A horror film, I hate scary movies. We all sat together in one row, Jonny happen to sit by me. I looked away at every single jump scare in that movie . During the entire movie, Jonny was trying to talk to me. 

When the first jump scare popped up, I turned away at his direction, he looks at me and asked, "Are you scared?", it was such a rhetorical thing to ask.

Once we got home, I did my usual being a loser on the internet. I saw that I had a friend request.

"What the fuck?", I said to myself, and I saw it was Jonny! I accepted to be nice, and he messages me asap.

"yoo", he sent, and I replied "hey"

"Whats up"

"were u scared"

"haha"

Jonny sent.

"Yeah dumb jumpscares"

"But ill be able to sleep at night"

I replied.

"haha okay"

"wyd"

Jonny sent.

I didn't reply.

"do drive"

"or is your brother yo shofer"

"aha"

"?"

Jonny sent.

"No I dont drive sadly"

"No one has the time to teach me"

I replied.

"ohh iz okay i can be ur uber too"

Jonny sent., I replied "Lmao I guess"

Jonny then askes for my number. and we texted alot through that night. He flirted with me, told me that I was cute, and he couldn't help ,but to stare at me, and also that he wanted to hold my hand in the theatres. Of course he asked if I was single, I told him no, and he said he would wait. Then I felt bad to start developing feelings, and I just wasn't happy with James anymore.

The next day, Jonny wanted to take me out, I agreed and he held my hand, complimented me the entire time.