say something | l.s.

- Chapter 13 -

[an:/] BUT U GUYS ARE FREAKING AMAZING!!!!!!!!!!!! I love you all seriously and thank you for the votes and comments from the last chapter. so well i promised to post this when i reached it so yeah here it is. Hope you all like it and wow this time 20 VOTES AND 9 COMMENTS? if u give me that im gonna be so happy. 

p.s.- sorry for some errors  and the song from this chapter is I Can't Make you Love Me by Bon Iver

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“I’ve loved you since the first moment I saw you. I guess maybe I’ve even loved you before I saw you.”

I’m speechless. He is joking… he’s fucking joking “Don’t say something like that Harry. Stop taking everything as a joke and be serious once in a while.” I shout. I don’t want to believe it. Sure I put that option sometimes, by the way he acts so that maybe he might has feelings for me. But love me? He told me he loved me, this is something big.

“I’m serious.” He’s fucking smirking. “I love you Lou.” Shut up “And I know you don’t feel the same, but I don’t care. I’ll fight for you. I’ll make you say you love me and the only person you’ll want to be with, will be me.” I cover my mouth with my hands. I’m shocked. This is a dream, Harry didn’t just say that.

“Shut up Harry.” I pass my fingers through my hair “Everything that you speak is bullshit.” I don’t even know why I am reacting this way… but he told me he loved me. His words… his words were… amazing, I mean, I wished they were real and I actually felt the same because it was beautiful. “Oh my god.” I sit on my bed and take a deep breathe.

“Louis…” He tries to stand up but

“No, stay there” I shout, making him stop and sit again on the floor, resting his back on the door. He looks at me like a baby, his eyes are begging for me to sit beside him, I know it. But I can’t. He needs to be kidding. “You must hate me a lot to stress me out by saying a thing like that.” I say. I need to make myself believe that he’s lying, no matter what I’ve gotta say. And more important… I need to make him realise that he doesn’t love me and that he is joking.

“Do you think I would joke about this Louis?” he raises his voice “Are you blind? I even thought you knew it already by the others or even by the way I act around you.” He’s making such an effort not to stand up. “Since the first moment I saw you, I knew you were special.” I almost forgot about the day we met. It was weird, he was blushing when Niall introduced him to us. He seemed so shy towards me, nothing compared to now. I knew who he was already because everyone knew who Harry Styles was around the campus and not because of the best actions. “I know it sounds cliché Louis but you know I don’t lie…” He lied about Bryan and now I understand why and how desperate he is.

“Even if it’s true… You were involved with so many people in the past and even in the other day you brought a girl to our dorm” how can I believe him?

“You know that it was nothing serious. I don’t have a proper relationship since the day we met and the people I had sex with…” I frown “they weren’t serious and I was mostly drunk.” He doesn’t meet my eyes. He should be ashamed by what he’s telling me “And about the girl… I was mad because of what you told me about Bryan so I wanted… I wanted to make you jealous.” What? “I know it didn’t work but, fuck, I’m so jealous of Bryan”

“So you lie about him…”

“I didn’t fucking lie Louis, when are you going to see that? I know him better than you think he’s a bad person and he doesn’t deserve such an amazing person as you are.”

“So you think you deserve?” I tell him but regret it in the same moment. He seems to hold his breath for a little and look at me hurt. Hurt, again. He looks at the ground and I know he’s joining his lips tightly. He uses to do it… when he is about to cry. Shit. “Har-“