That Is Where My Heart Resides.

20.Sameer

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Still can't get enough of it.

"Was it necessary Sameer?You just ruined her life", Amma started once again with her mocking.

"Amma that's the only way", I said with a big sigh and a sad expression plastered on my face.

I felt that there was no other way.There had to be something.Plus how can Mahoor simply be with someone like that.How can she not see what I see?Why is she blind?
I'm more responsible than him,more caring more loving,so how could she even think of going on with him?
And he is nothing.He has none of such traits and I deserve her more than him,he's just.

Ya Allah why can't she be mine?

"Do you know what you started?",Amma breathed out fumes of anger.

"Amma I'm closing this chapter now,if Mahoor deserved me than she would've been mine,but now there is nothing I can do,I even tried to save her life", I replied getting annoyed by Amma's weird and stubborn behaviour.

With that I just stormed out of the room,with the car keys jingling in my hands.There was only one way I could escape but before my heart forced me into this thought of visiting Mahoor's house and just see how she is,ofcourse she'll be at her house on the first day after her marriage.

Ringing the door bell I stood back.The door opened and then I was faced by Mahoor's mother who seemed quite weird about me visiting them,and a there was a very disgusted expression on her face when her eyes noticed me.

"Asalamo Alaikum aunty", I tried to calm her annoyance down.

"Walaikum Asalam,come in Sameer", she walked inside and then closed the door.

I wasn't aware of her mood swings but first she was quite annoyed and now she seemed to be surprised seeing me.

"Beta have a seat,uncle is on his job so its only me", she mentioned making her way through the kitchen.

"Is Mahoor here today?", I questioned abruptly,plus was afraid if she was going to blame me for interference in her daughter's marriage before,but it was the truth.

For a second she just looked inside my eyes and then I just looked away,because I didn't have that strength after all this to even look in her eyes.

"Yes", she said after all the waiting.

"Ammi who is there?", Mahoor embraced with her presence.

She was just like before.So calm and beautiful.The sea and her soul would have no parallel and I wish I could just get to even know her.My heart was begging to see if she was happy with her marriage or not.My sixth sense kept alarming me that she wasn't happy but there was a soft smile on her face alike plastic and that doubt just slipped from my mind.

Soon as her eyes darted over me she just changed her face expression into a chaotic and annoyed one.I don't know what she just thinks about me whenever I just relieve her with my presence.I swear I relieve her.

"Mahoor bring some tea for the guests", aunty ordered while Mahoor already went towards the kitchen,more like dashed,it felt as if she wanted to get rid of me.

"So Sameer when are you going to get married?", aunty said with a plain smile on her face.

"Whenever Amma finds the right partner for me", I replied cautiously but it wasn't true.After Mahoor was married I just cannot even think of getting married to someone else,without her everything feels empty,like she just furnishes everything with her charm,like the stars shine because of her.

With her eyes fixed on the floor she offered me the tea,which I gladly took and then aunty suddenly got up and disappeared.

"How are you?", she broke the silence for the first time,for the very first time.

"Alhumdulillah,what about you?", I replied chuckling nervously.

"Same",she sighed.

"Mahoor if you don't mind can I ask you something?", I said confidently,my heart urging me to be courageous.

"What?", she said sipping her tea.

"You're happy with Omer right?", I muttered my heartbeats increasing with the speed of my words and its context.

"Is that a reasonable question,ofcourse I am", she replied suddenly getting furious.

"I mean how is his attitude?", I begin further questioning to clear my doubts.

"Can you please stop?", she replied.

"Ofcourse he's good to...me", she breathed rubbing her hands together.

"What do you want,and why do you even care?", she finally questioned.

"I'm sorry but I had a reason that I'm unable to explain", with that I placed the tea cup on the table and stood up.

"Say salam to uncle and aunty", I called moving outside.

"Wait,you can stay if you want I didn't mean to...", she pleaded getting nervous.

"I have to go somewhere,so I shall be leaving,take care Mahoor", I replied closing the door and walking on my way.

I had to move away and I wanted to though but my heart was refusing.

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