That Is Where My Heart Resides.

27.Sameer

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Say something I'm giving up on you,

Moving on wasn't supposed to be easy but recently it was a way that I just discovered to keep my soul alive.Without her everything is so full of sadness,the world seems to out of its colors,nothing seems to be exotic anymore.Even the sky never shined to its fullest ever since she left,it's always been dripping with thin wispy clouds all the time when she was there;with me.It really is hard to keep hold of yourself when you know how hard you are falling apart.

All of this is making me wild,just because she got too close to me and now its hard to let her go and even get her off my mind,because she is the first thought on my mind when I wake up,the last thing on my mind when I try to fall asleep,and the thoughts between the day encircle her and nothing else.I don't even know why even though we've just talked not that much,neither do I know her for years but my heart is yelping for her like she is a life saving pill for me;a happy pill.

Am I been thinking wrong that a part of her loves me too?
Like fool that I am for falling in love with her and even thinking she loves me back too.

I been walking under the scorching sun for the past three minutes with the hope in my heart that maybe I would just see or she would just come to me and say 'save me from this' and immediately I just run for her and then do anything to save her.

She's everywhere I see,even though its what I am thinking not seeing but then a muffled voice pounds against my ears.Its more like its been far away and fades slowly.

"Sameer---"

How can I even imagine that this is not an imagination or rather my own hallucination when my eyes search for her and she is standing miles apart,waving,calling for help.Why would she even call me for help?I know the fact that she hates me ever since she met me and never showed any signs of likeness,but now she is calling me.

I ignore it and then walk back to where I came from but then the voice reaches out to me,its clearer now and it sounds definitely like hers,like oceanic water is pouring on all over me,the soft voice pounds against my ears and then all I do is just run to where the voice was coming from,my face brushing past the frosty and chilly air,making me freeze but I don't care for anything.All the voices of the traffic,dogs barking and the birds chirping suddenly vanish into thin air and its her voice that I just hear.

"Mahoor-", I breathe out as my lungs take in air constantly and I pant.

"Forgive me for everything Sameer,I was wrong about you,please save me from that devil please-", she begged blinking tears.

"But can you first let me know that this isn't a Bollywood movie scene,can I just pinch myself?", I joked and then miraculously her thin lips turned into a wide grin,her tears were now converted to tears of happiness from sadness and she just punched me.

"Are you serious?", she laughed with anger pouring on her.

"Ofcourse how can I believe its happening that the one who hates me is calling me for help and even apologising to me?", I said sarcastically.

She just stared me and then rotated her head backwards for something but there was no one.

"Why did you just run all the way here?", I asked her desperately.

"Before all this queries can we just run from here before Omer just brings himself here?", she begged tracing for danger.

Both of us almost ran to where I just parked my car and then I drove as fast as I could,my ears were filled with her indistinctive duaa's she prayed.

"You aren't going to die,honey--", I laughed.

"Shutup and keep your eyes on the road otherwise I surely will", she called out and then was back to her praying.

My eyes darted to her no sooner.

She was already laughing so hard.

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