That Is Where My Heart Resides.

32.Sameer

"I don't know what's happening with Mahoor?Her in laws are just playing with her life.", Amma said in a deep glow her eyes showed how sad she was for Mahoor,just like she was her real mother.

"What happened Amma",I asked standing up.

"Omer has given her divorce and now she'll be getting married again", Amma said without any emotion now.

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"Asalamo Alaikum,how are you bhai"

"I'm fine and glad to be here and Pakistan,Mahoor is quite better,much better"

"I just had an idea for cheering all of us with-----"

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And then she arrived with his brother,Fahad.She seemed to be a bit happy but color was drawn away from her face like she was too astonished to see my presence.Her cheeks weren't rosy like how they always were whenever my eyes saw her,they were pale and dull,and most of all hollow,it was the consequences of the lung cancer but when she passed me a weak smile I knew she was better,much better than before.

"Mahoor we just planned a dinner for you,Sameer and I,we just hope you get cheery and enjoy all this,just see over there", Fahad said holding her hand.

And then her eyes just hovered to the place where every desi food was placed,the aroma tempting and delicious,I knew she was never fond of those fast food,that included those burgers,fries and pizzas,but rather biryani,seekh kababs and chicken kata kat and more.The rich aroma of spiced foods wafted down and beckoned everybody.Tabkes were laden with delicacies.Ocean creatures drizzled in hot sauces or begging to be dipped in spicy concotions.

But she didn't seemed as delighted as I expected her to be,maybe that was because of her illness or something else.Because I knew that deep down at my heart that the divorce thing was bothering her,she didn't want to get rid of it,because she wasn't ready to hear the talks of people muttering bad things for her parents and how bad those aunty gossip,almost changing everything and moreover exaggerating it,and how just it spreads like a wildfire in each place.

"Do you like it Mahoor?", I asked trying to overcome her melancholic state.

"Its great thankyou both of you but I don't think I'll be able to eat it because its there is a lump in my thorat,its bugging alot,and I know that it will take more time", she muttered which I found quite serious but it didn't had to be that serious enough.

"Mahoor now don't make him lose his heart already,we've done efforts just try harder", Fahad confessed to her getting a bit disheartened.

"Okay I will", she muttered smiling weakly.

She wasn't going to laugh or giggle,which was one thing I asked Fahad to bring her here,so she could just cheer up a bit.But she was different from the Mahoor I was aware of,she wasn't that Mahoor,which just took my love of her away from ny heart but some parts of it just remained there,that were urging me to fight against my brain and heart and that you still love her,you love her voice,the way she laughs,the way she smiles,the way she just greets salam,the way she acts so shyly at something mad,the way she just bursts into anger which I find adorable.

But ever since she just got sick because of cancer and worried about Omer and the divorce thing.

I've seen storm in her eyes and thorns in her heart.I've seen the hidden darkness that dances in her body,the way their is a tight knot in the pit of her stomach,the way her hands tremble,the way her heart shatters and dies and cries out.I've seen that she has lost the power of happiness from her eyes,but not just from her eyes but also from her soul.I've seen the angel in her that tries to fight her demons but he's ill and so the angel's never win against the darkness.I've now been able to see her worst,I see how much it broke me,my soul,my heart,my everything,my hope.But I am not going anywhere because my flaw is loving her with every bone in my body.

"Mahoor I just have to say something to you,remember my words and just try to think over them,go through them everytime,they will make you strong,because words express everything,everything Mahoor", I called to her while she just listened.

"No matter how you look,how hollow and stark you look right now,no matter what you're going through,just keep this thing in your mind,you are incredible,yoy just make this world a better place,you just make it wonderful and full of exotic and touchy colors,you have so much potential and so many things left to do,you have time,better things are coming your way,so please hang in there and carry on,you'll be okay,the sun will rise to better days,and I know you have it in you,you can do it", I explained trying to best to choose those words which affected her the most.

"And after all this remember that I'll always be there,its just you have to understand",I ended the talk while she still stared down me with her astonishment.

"I just cannot do it,because I don't think you deserve me Sameer,I know you are loving caring and everything,you are weird but weird is a side effect of being awesome,and you know that a person should be extraordinary,so weird is rad right?I feel blessed that a guy like you wants to have me in her life,but do you really think you adore me that much or you want to just take care of me,you are more deserving Sameer,more worthy,think again", she said trying to blink away her tears.

Was she denying me or she really was saying the truth?
My mind is just a whirlwind of emotions right now,anguish,pain,guilty,sadness and a bit spice of happiness.

My face suddenly lightened up unable to comprehend the storm that shocked me.

I wonder if I ever cross her mind.Because for me it happens all the time.

A/N: So how was the chapter?
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