Chapter 5
u might think u have feelings for someone but then again what are feelings?
i couldnt tell u how many feelings i've had for people. i think that feelings are suppose to be left inside and then all at once let out. or choose when u wanna let people know about them.
its kinda hard having major feelings. and for me its even harder. i kinda wanna keep to myself because i dont want to get my heart broken.
i also couldnt tell you how much feelings i had for that one special person. i couldnt tell you who it was either. {Love} to me love means sharing every secret, thought, and feeling with that one person.
i also think that should be allowed to love who ever you want to. you shouldnt be judged because of who you love. you shouldnt be pushed away because of who means something to you. it doesnt matter if your all alone, because they dont like you anymore because you like someone. you should just be yourself and nobody else.
you shouldnt care about what people think of you. are how they look at you.
i think that i should tell them that i love them. but then i would get scared.
all these thoughts run through my head as i wash my face in my bestfriends bathroom. i feel kinda awkward. but i try not to think. i try to be calm. but something inside of me wants to blurt out that i love her. i hold it in.
i got really mad a few hours ago because we were at the mall and our friend walks by and then it happends...
