Eastenders~Carter Boy

Chapter 23~Tea Talk

James'POV
I must of sat in that alleyway for about half an hour before I heard a voice "James" I looked up it was Stacey.

I stood up and rubbed my eyes quickly. "You alright"she asked "Yeah,I'm fine"I said putting my hands in my pockets to try and act like everything was ok.

"Is it Ella have you two y'know broken up or something" she asked anxiously "No,no we're fine it's just am family things y'know"I replied attempting to shrug it off.

"Well why don't we have a tea in the cafe and talk about it eh"she said sweetly. "I can't,I have things to do"I lied. "Please James"she insisted. "Yeah, ok"I said giving in.

We sat down in the cafe and Stacey ordered two teas and placed one down in front of me as she sat down opposite me.I leant towards my tea and wrapped my hands around it.

"So is it about your mum"she said.I looked up."How do you know"I asked.

"Jack confided in me but please don't be angry because he promised he had only told me and no one else"she told me sorrowfully.

"Wow so Jack knows,who else".I asked "What?" She asked with a slight confusion in her voice "Who else knew, she was my mum?"I said.I was angry but was speaking in a quiet tone.

"James,Im sorry it wasn't and isn't my place to tell you these things"Stacey replied."Sorry,it's just all these years why,why now,why not 13 years ago when I was born"I said to Stacey.

"Maybe she realised how much she loves you and how much she wants to be a part of you life"Stacey said.I thought about that.

She put her hands on my hands and said "Please,James at least talk to her I mean at the end of the day she is your mum".

I looked at her and thought to myself she's right.At the end of the day Roxy is my mum the least I could do is talk to her.

Suddenly my dad walked into the cafe,he saw me and Stacey and he stood beside our table.

"I better go Dot has been taking care of Arthur and I wouldn't want her to be late for prayer group"Stacey said as she stood up."See you soon James"she said as she walked out of the cafe.

My dad took her place "Son,I-"he started."Stop dad just stop I'm nearly 14 years old and my whole life I grew up thinking I had the perfect family but of course I didn't,of course you had something to hide because I heard mum I mean Linda earlier and she said she wanted you to tell me"I looked at him we both had tears in our eyes.

"So what happened eh dad?You lost your bottle or something"I said quietly but with anger in my voice.

"James,I made a mistake a big one. Your mum and I it was a once off.At the time Linda and I decided split which lasted for about a month so I had a one night stand with Roxy and she fell pregnant.When you were born Roxy wasn't stable or in the right frame of mind to care for you so we all decided it was best for you if you just grew up without her in your life and I'm sorry I didn't tell you and if I could turn back time I would because I felt so guilty every second that I you didn't know but I thought it was the right thing to do so I'm sorry.Alright I'm sorry".

I looked at him dead on."I understand dad,I really do but I can't forgive I just can't"I stormed out of the cafe onto the square.I knew what I had to do.

I walked up the steps and knocked on the door."Alright mate"Jack said as he flung open the door."Where is she eh Jack".I asked furiously.

"Who Griffin,he's gone into town with Billy and Will"."Not him".He stepped back from the door allowing me to enter.

I walked into the sitting room where Ronnie and Roxy were.I looked at Roxy.

There she was, there was my real mum.