Eastenders~Carter Boy

Chapter 22~The Secret

James'POV 
I opened my eyes and pulled my phone out from under my pillow.I looked at the time it was 11:30 that is the longest I had slept in a long time.I swung my legs out of bed and began walking towards the kitchen.

The kitchen door was barley open.I could hear Whitney and my mum whispering at the table and I could just about see my dad leaning against the kitchen drawers.

I stood at the door,listening to what they were saying.I mean I know you shouldn't eavesdrop but they have been really strange since their argument at my Nan's house.

"Oh Whit what's happening to our family,one of my kids is stressed over uni exams,my baby girl is travelling the world with this massive burden on her shoulders,my baby boy could have brain damage,James needs to know the truth of about his birth and Lee has just married someone who is now being dragged into our massive family problems"My mum said sounding like she was about to break down in tears.

"Listen,I married Lee because I love him and his family,I don't mind getting involved in arguments here and there,I mean my family is far from perfect" Whit said squeezing her hands.

"Its going to be ok Linda I promise,and I'll mind the bar today while ye tell him if you'd like".

"I don't know if I can do it,I mean what if he never forgives us" my mum said nervously. "Listen,we'll sit the boy down later and I'll tell him the truth"My dad sighed.

"What if he never forgives us, I told you we should have told him from the very start but no you had to pretend it didn't happen"My mum shouted.

She flung open the door and we came face to face "Morning"I said nervously "Morning"My mum said attempting to act completely normally.

"You alright"I asked her what to pretending I wasn't listening at all "Yeah nothing for you to worry about"she scurried into her bedroom.

I walked in to the kitchen,  "Am boy can you just give us a minute" my dad asked "Yeah,let me just get a piece of toast any I---"."Now"he shouted.

I looked at Whitney,she had eyes that were telling me to go.I walked out of the kitchen and into the hallway.My dad closed the kitchen door behind me.I could hear my mum crying in her room,what was going on?

Later that day
Since my dad told me to get out of the kitchen,I had spent most of the morning in my room desperately trying to get Cian to talk to me as we hadn't spoken since the 'escape plan'.

I had gotten dressed and decided to confront my parents about what all the tears and shouting was about.

"DAD"I called "In here boy".I walked into the living room "Sit down"my mum said patting a seat on the coach beside her.My dad was standing up biting his nails,I could tell he was anxious.

"Is it Nancy?"I asked "No,just sit down".My mum said gently.I sat down cautiously.

"What's going on I don't--". "Stop just listen" my mum interrupted looking over to my dad.

"Listen boy when you were born we thought we were doing the right thing and we were going to tell you but she wasn't ready for you and we all agreed it was best for you but now she's somewhat stable and wants to get to know you" my dad said .

"What was best for me?"I questioned him nervously.The room fell completely silent "What was best for me"I shouted.

"Roxy s-she's y-your...."my mum stuttered.There was another pause of pure silence.I stood up in frustration.

"She's my what"I started calmly holding in my anger.No one answered me."My what"I shouted now letting loose of the anger inside me.

"Your mum,Roxy is your mother" My dad shouted furiously back at me. "Mick" Linda screamed.

I stood there in absolute awe of what had happened.I looked at Linda who I thought was my mum.

"He's lying isn't he,he must be,your my mum not her,you have to be it's not possible,How?"I said with mixed emotions,I felt upset,confused and most of all angry.

Linda looked down at the ground "I'm sorry"she said starting to cry.I looked at my dad "Your lying,say it,say that your lying"I shouted,I was on the verge of tears.

"I'm sorry boy she wasn't ready to take care of you.She didn't have the stability".My dad said while looking down.

"Are you even my real dad".I asked him "Of course I am"he said looked up at me.

"I love you and L she has always treated you like your hers because in her eyes you are hers".He added.

"You have lied to me for my whole life.How can ever forgive you?"I stated in a calm,upset tone.

I opened the door to leave but I saw Johnny on his way in to the living room "Alright James"he said.I brushed off him and just sprinted out of the pub "James"I heard Whitney say as I left,I ignored her and kept running.

I just ran through the market and turned the corner into an alleyway.I punched the brick wall in anger,my hand started to bleed but I couldn't feel the pain.I slowly sunk to the ground and just sat there crying.

I never cry but I mean how could they.How could Roxy,I mean she's my mum.