I knew
That it was only
A matter of days
Before everything
Comes crashing down
The time
Was already ticking
Counting how much
I have left
And when
The clock's hands
Stopped moving
I knew then
That it was my time
I died
Not on the outside
But inside
My heart feels
Like it's being
Torn apart
Into thousands
Of pieces
The dread that fills me
Is so overwhelming
I can't help but try to escape
The thing is
When something you assumed
Becomes the truth
You realize then
That there's no turning back
Negative emotions consume you
But at the same time
Numbness becomes an acquaintance
This is where
Living becomes hard
So you just kill yourself
Only in achieving death
Are we able to live again
