Life is a prison
And I'd tell you what I heard
Only that I can't
I can't
"I also want to give up
But then I see my friends..."
I used to feel like that
Keyword: USED
I may not have wanted to go to school
But the thought
That there are people who cares for me
Was enough motivation
But it got worse
It fucking got worse
I can't even get out of bed
I can't even do what I used to love
This thing
Whatever this is
Robbed me of those things I loved
Now the only thing
That's left is this void
Everyday
It gets larger
And I'm just counting
Down the days
When it finally
Consumes me
I'm tired
So fucking tired
I don't even know what to do anymore
This thing inside me
Is constantly making me into something I am clearly not
I don't even know who I am
There are times
I'd laugh
I'd smile
Only to feel this crack in my heart
And I'd realize
It would be so much better
If I wasn't here
Everything would fall into place
And I'd finally have what I really want
But life hangs onto me
It won't let go
I'm still chained
Trapped
Forever a puppet
And it fucking hurts
It hurts
To the point that I
Just want to grab the heart inside me
And squeeze
Until no more red is left
'Cause maybe
This is the key
And I'd finally be free of this prison
This prison
Where the people around me
Are the guards
And the reason why I'm here
Is life
And everything doesn't make sense at all
I look at these guards
And see nothing
Feel nothing
I'm supposed to feel something
Right?
But even my heart
Gets tired
And I fear
That when it is time
I'd still feel nothing
