One Direction Preferences

23 - He Catches You During Your Suicide Attempt (Harry)

He Catches You During Your Suicide Attempt (Harry)

Harry: This was it for you. Your whole world was crumbling down and nothing could stop it. Harry always told you that you were beautiful and that you meant the world to him, but somehow the fans comments overtook his. So today was the day. The day where all the pain would end. You knew Harry wasn’t due home for a few hours so you had time. You wrote a letter, hoping it would explain everything you were feeling. Then you made your way to your favorite spot. The tree in the backyard. You and Harry had so many fun times back there and if he wasn’t there, you’d go and sit underneath with music and a book just to escape reality. Now you were going out there to escape reality forever. When you sat down you took in the view one last time. The sun beating down on your face and the light breeze rustling you hair. You took five of the many pills out if the bottle and began popping them in your mouth. The sounds around you began to get muffled. As you continued swallowing the pills, your body began numbing, one area at a time. You felt weightless but heavy at the same time. The world was beginning to get darker as if swallowing you whole. The last thing you saw before darkness completely overtook you, was a figure running over to you and then you were out.

 

~At Hospital~

Your eyes fluttered open. You could see but couldn’t process what was going on. A man with a white jacket walked in, followed by the one person you needed right now. The man who you assumed was the doctor went to check the many machines the surrounded you and your boyfriend came up to you. He didn’t touch he just looked. The look in his eyes told you that he was scared. Scared to touch in fear that you’ll crumble in his fingers. But you wanted his touch. You wanted to feel his warmth. You wanted to know he was really there. You slowly outstretched an arm towards him, letting him know that it was okay. He was hesitant at first but once he felt your cool skin, his two hands enveloped yours. He sat down next to you on your bed, one of his hands moving to grab your other one. The sight unfolding in front of you was heartbreaking. His eyes gave the hint that he hadn’t slept much since the incident. The bags under his eyes were too dark for any kind of make up to cover. They were red and puffy, alerting you that he had been crying and that alone made you want to cry. His face was pale. Too pale. His cheek bones were more jutted out than usual. He must not have eaten much either. It was painful to see the man you love in so much pain because of you. “

Harry,” you breathed out.

“I just want to know why (Y/N), that’s all I ask. Why?” As he said this, the tears he had been holding in finally spilled out.

“Everything was going wrong. The only thing I was sure of was that I loved you. But I didn’t know if you loved me back… I was scared. I had all these people telling me I wasn’t good enough for you, telling me that I would be just another one of your flings. The comments flying from every direction telling me to get an eating disorder because it was the only way to lose weight. Eventually those stopped and those people thought it would just be easier to tell me to die. So, after lots of thinking I figures it would be the easiest. But now, I realize that it wasn’t.” Harry was sobbing at the end. He pulled your hands up to his lips and cried.

“How could they? I want you to know, right here and now that if you ever think that I’m just going to leave you, that’s the farthest thing from the truth. You’re the one. I love you so much, my heart breaks knowing you think I don’t. I honestly can’t even express how much I love you,” he sobbed.

You couldn’t hold the pain you were feeling anymore. The sobs came out strangled. Harry ignores about all the wires around you and climbed in next to you. His arms held you tightly to his chest, afraid that if he loosened up at all, you’d slip away. “Promise me something (Y/N). Please don’t let this happen again. I’m always here for you. If you have to pull me away from a concert, I don’t care. You’re so much more important. I need you to want to help yourself too. I will be your strength, anything you need to love yourself as much as I do. I can’t lose you. You are literally the love of my life. I need you.”

“Harry, I promise you from the bottom of my heart that I will do everything in my power to do what you said. It means so much to me that you care so much. I don’t know what I’d do without you,” you cried into him.

You had come to realize that you need each other and harming yourself will only harm the people you love. Harry was there, and he wasn’t going anywhere. You knew you could do this if you had his support and that meant the world to you. “I love you so freaking much (Y/N). I never want you to forget that.”

“Never Harry. I love you so much. Please, can you stay with me tonight?” you asked, looking up slightly.

“Now and forever baby.”

*This preference is dedicated to a friend of mine who has been suffering for a while but she’s getting stronger. This was a request of hers and I promised to make each part special which is why each boy will be separate. Thank you for reading*