Post-Human

chapter 7 I've broke apart my life like an egg shell

         well It's funny but well as it was second well I was in art well I was working on my art project Lee was talking about her conclusion that bisexuals are only half gay well in my 14 years of life I never knew anyone who didn't know that but, it's funny because I looked at her and said "how did you not know that?" well she answered "It just never processed in my mind!" well later on in the conversation well she talked about some of her friends are bi one leans more towards men I told her I'm bi I just lean more towards women , some are pan, some are gay, and then she tells me she's pan. then I furrowed my eyebrows and said "Really?" she replied with a simple "yes," 

next class listening to hurricane by Halsey [male version] on my computer and looking around and over thinking I've yesterday I was out in my secret garden it was night and I sat on the stump I cried. My clothes hit the ground. I barley had any clothes on anyways but I took off my hoodie and walked into the freezing cold water and sat there wishing for a different way to punish myself the water made my skin turn purple and blue and my hair was frozen my eyes were closed as I felt my heart beat freezing and trying to pump blood every hair on my body stood up and stayed there I laid at the bottom of the pond the back of my head touches the sand at the bottom of the pond hold my breathe for 42 seconds let it out I went up for air i did that for  30 minutes then I walked home freezing my lips turning blue and my hair frozen  i can't feel my feet pressing and lifting from the concrete I get to the side walk and wipe my feet on the carpet and then I open the door and as It creeks open I slowly walk to through the kitchen I remember it was 3:01am I'm as cold as ice. I walk to the bathroom took a shower and wash the algae off my hair the warmth of the water slides off my skin burning and bringing color to my skin I warm up quickly and I can feel. I dry off walk out the door and go to bed. I wake up at 6:00 then I'm here then the day past by like a storm and now I'm home